<p>If it's any sort of relief, my situation last year was almost exactly the same, except about forty times more messed up. The differences:</p>
<p>--My parents were going through a long drawn-out divorce process through the courts (started AFTER I applied: I got the same "Go for it!" speech as jm did), so by the time my accept. letters came back, they were still not technically divorced, so I had to apply for aid with my dads income included (my mom doesnt work, and is going back to school).</p>
<p>--Between my moms school costs and $27,000 in legal fees from the divorce, my so-called college fund is completely gone, including the thousands of dollars (roughly 7k) I had put into it working nearly full time during 11th and 12th grade.</p>
<p>--My dad is the VP of a large company, and makes quite a lot of money. Unfortunately, he had also been lying about his income for the last four years. Unfortunately, the way I discovered this was when the FAFSAs I had filled out with my dads info on it were checked and basically thrown back in my face.</p>
<p>--Several schools that I applied to would not even speak to me after the FAFSA issue. It doesn't matter much anyway; whichever version of his income you looked at, there was no way I stood a chance for any aid.</p>
<p>--My dad left the family. Legally, he is required to pay $10,000 per year for college, but that is IT. I have to phone-terrorize him to get him to pay even that, but 1 yr into school it's still Ok.</p>
<p>--Ok, so I could go to a different school for a yr... but I was worried I'd be stuck there forever. The very selective schools I applied to said I would have to reapply to get in, and I was convinced that I would not get in if I reapplied because I was suddenly failing math class due to a teacher who had worse senioritis than I did, paired with my own dyslexia which was getting even worse due to the stress. I started writing all of the answers, stats, charts, and graphs correctly but entirely backwards, for which she refused to give me any credit. No matter how many times I (or the principal, or anyone for that matter) explained it to her, she'd just say "It doesnt matter! Who cares about grades when you're a senior?!" </p>
<p>Also, emboldened by my senior status... and always being one to stand up for what i believe in... my AP US teacher (the only black teacher in the whole school) was fired by the head of the department because she gave a snobby girl whose mother bailed out $12,000 on SAT tutors, desperately trying to force her into the "smart asian girl" stereotype and thus creating a total monster, a C in the class. Being her partner for the semester, I can attest to the fact that she not ONCE handed in her homework, but according to her the teacher "lost" it. </p>
<p>The firing infuriated me, but what was even worse was that the pompous head of the apartment took over, and proceeded to conduct every class by talking about how wonderful he himself was and how someone just ought to write a book about him. He was also, incidentally, the man behind the firing. I was also, incidentally, spending 8 hours staking out the principals office to get my teacher back. He backed me into a corner once and threatened that I would be "better off" were I to stop, I said "Thanks for your concern, but I will not," so he proceeded to give me a 75 on every single thing I turned in without reading any of it. NOT to go into that further and write the longest post ever, I'll just conclude that I had not-entirely-irrational reasons for worrying about my grades when reapplying to ivies, etc. </p>
<p>--ALSO, the two easier schools I did apply to, as well as several others, I was just then finding out, had never recieved my applications. My HS had a policy where they would not send your transcript to a school unless you let THEM review and send your application (this was a public high school. I know its weird) and they apparently managed to lose my apps to Binghamton, Pratt, and Stonybrook, as well as CMU and Vassar.</p>
<p>-- I also applied to The U. of Austin, TX, which I could have gotten money from except that they were convinced that the school sent them a "forged transcript" for some reason. 3 more transcripts were sent back, all marked "forged." I eventually decided I did not want to live in TX even more than I wanted to go to college.</p>
<p>So... That was where I was this time last year, pulling my hair out of my head, quite literally. Having spent most of my HS career staying up all night studying for APs, taking complicated tests in subjects that I had absolutely no interest in, doing all sorts of ex. curricular programs, etc, all for THAT moment, I was a complete mess. I finally concluded that I had worked so hard that I WOULD go to a competetive school for the other students that would be there, that it was what I absolutely had to do. I knew that if I stayed home, I'd get a job and just end up working, either get promoted or emotionally attached, and never go to college. I was so afraid of that that I planned to either go to England to work, or go to Carleton, where my friend went to a yr before me, and work as a waitress in an on-campus coffee shop where the school might charitably allow me to take some classes for free. Looking back, this may have been the most depressing option of all.</p>
<p>Anyway, ALL that I wanted to say by going into alll of this, is that you are definitely NOT ALONE. All across the country, students have situations like ours, and you can make it. While it is highly impractical to get all of the loans, etc, it seems like your father may help you more than mine did, and even without him it definitely CAN be possible. Still, apply for any scholarships that you can. Every little bit helps.</p>
<p>Oh, and to conclude my story, what the heck I am doing now and why the hell I'm at CMU, well... Basically, while all of the other schools answered my questions with something along the lines of "Thats nice. Go cry about it. NEXT--!" CMU admissions and financial aid people were uniquely nice, kind, and compassionate. Not only did they let me reapply in the middle of June, but they also let me fill out a separate FAFSA w/o my dads income on it (thank god the application got messed up, so they never saw the ruined FAFSA) for consideration, and when I still couldnt afford the school with all of the considerations they had made, they actually just gave me more money. I mean, I was crying on the phone with these people (I repeat: emotional disaster) but somehow everything worked out... or will work out, Ok, IS IN THE PROCESS of working out, somehow.</p>
<p>If you cant go to school, the England idea really wasnt bad. British Pounds to Dollars is a great exchange if you can manage to make any money, and if you need a school thats really considerate with financial aid, try CMU-- I have several friends with very similar stories.</p>
<p>-Danielle</p>
<p>PS: Good luck, and please take care of yourself. This will only make you stronger.</p>