<p>This isn't your average person on here complaining that they didn't make a combined 1600 on reading and math and made a 1590 instead. </p>
<p>I have a big problem. This is the second time I have taken the test that is supposed to measure you in high school and I just looked at my results today (socres came out Monday as you all know)</p>
<p>I am very disappointed- My reading score went down from the first time I took it!- 530 vs. 560 and my math (I am not a math person) went up from 490 to 520. Writing which I know no college looks at went up as well from a 560 to 590. Why am I getting my highest scores in Writing when no college looks at it?</p>
<p>I want to cry. I am very disappointed in myself. I don't have a high GPA and I was counting on SAT to be my "please take another look at my appliaction". Obviously it is more of an incentive for a college to reject me. I guess I had no chance going into this game of high school. I went to the highest ranked high schools in my state (Texas) where the top 10% has a GPA of 3.85-4.0. Plus my father died my freshman year not to mention the battle of his estate with his new wife that is still ongoing. I don't even have the chance to explain what I went through with the college essays I have with me. "Why do you want to go to our university?" What kind of question is that? They all claim to not just look at grades and test scores but the total person. I don't think they do and with these test scores I got back I'm disappointed in myself and this system. Hopefully the ACT will make my chances higher but maybe I shouldn't count on that since I was counting so much on SAT.</p>
<p>I'm so scared for the months to come. I don't have a "saftey" it seems like all my colleges are reaches and I'm probablly going to be stuck here in Texas which I don't want to. Maybe that dream of going to Boston Univ or Northeastern in Boston is something of a long shot. Sure I'll fill out the application but with what I see on this board I don't think there is any chance for me. I hate to be so hard and negative on myself, but the truth is I was screwed when I walked in the first day of freshman year. All of the bad things happened throughout my high school years, I tried to make the best of it by being in band and working myself up. Band though is not getting me into college.</p>
<p>Sorry for the rant. I guess I just showed myself how disappointed I am right now. I don't want to even think about college after I mail those applications and essays in. I guess I should be looking at the application fee as a donation since it seems that according to the national average I'm not good enough- I'm just an average person.</p>