I just turned 16 and as a senior everyone knows we’re getting closer to graduation. Getting closer to that climax in high school doesn’t surprise me as much as it should and that might be a problem. I can personally say the way I think and handle situations has improved from the times where anxiety and stress were all I could think abt(8-11th).
But listen, I do great in school. I’m rank 1, SAT score isn’t as good as I want it to be (1090), been doing dual credit courses since 8th grade summer, had a good number of EC’s, and have also done activities on my own. That isn’t the point of this thread though, not the stress, the rigor, the academic achievements, the grades, NO.
I’m stuck in this constant loop containing these questions:
- What actually resonates with you?
- What visions do you have on that field/career/idea?
- What is your Purpose?
- What are you doing to get closer to that purpose?
- Is what your doing right now pushing you forward?
- Is your purpose self imposed or given to you?
- Were you forced to accept a certain view or do you have a mental block making you think and see things a certain way?
My first option was Computer Engineering but I really didn’t know if I wanted that, maybe I chose it because of the pressure from my parents. I’ve always geared towards technology because that’s where my skill is at.
I want to set my mind on one thing and just push full force towards it knowing there’s a risk of me losing it all involved. A passion that people would think is crazy and would never work. You see all those streamers? All those people who took a risk? the people who were doing so well in college but took on their own path knowing they had a blazing fire behind them and one mistake could set them up for life?
Even the people that stayed in college chasing their dream. That inspires me. The goal has always been a life including the 3 F’s: (Fun. Finance. Freedom.) And I know before that comes the struggle, stress, blood, sweat, tears but you have to at least have some sort of plan. Anyone have any thoughts on all this ranting, should I just choose CE and see where I end up? (I also have the option of staying back a year or retaking my 12th grade year but that would put me behind everyone)