<p>I started my sophomore year at a large university at the beginning of the month. All summer I was dreading about heading back to school. The year before I hated being at college, my mother passed away so I was really unsure and in shock about the whole college thing. Everything was a big blur. But I managed to finish the year with very good grades. Now I know for sure that I will not be going here anymore. Dorm life and living at college just isn't for everyone, and it is definitely not for me. I stuck it out a whole year. I plan on transferring to a school I can commute to from home for the Spring semester. But the problem is, I don't think I can make it here until the end of this semester. Mentally, it is too difficult. Just being here makes me upset. Everything I look at around me reminds me of last year and then I get an onset of cold sweats, think of how bad things were and I just fall apart. When I wake up in the morning my feelings are the worst. It is so hard to even concentrate, I just want to go home. And then when you add classes, exams, and my failing chemistry grade I just can't handle it. Everyone tells me, "take it day by day, things will get better, you will start to like it there". But as time grows on, it gets worse, I am more and more uncomfortable here. Each day feels like a week.
I know dropping out isn't the logical thing to do but my heart is screaming for me to do it, telling me that everything will be "ok" once you transfer and school won't be so bad because I know I will have home to fall back on every day. Now when I go home each weekend my symptoms are much better but I still feel sad and upset because I know I will have to go back for the week, for 14 more weeks! My dad knows im upset but I just don't know how I can explain it to him that my GUT is telling me to come home before I explode. I should finish the semester so I can get the credits and not fall behind, but as of now I don't think I can make it that far.</p>
<p>Talk to a college counselor to discuss your situation and I’m sure you can work something out.</p>
<p>Give your father some credit. He’s human. He loves you. He’ll continue to love you even if you admit to him your true feelings and your desire to take a little time off to regroup. Simply call him up and have a heart to heart talk with him. Taking a semester off is not going to ruin your future. Honestly, it’s better to take some time off then finding yourself floundering both academically and emotionally at the end of the semester when finals roll around.</p>