Hey guys! I transferred into boarding school my junior year and I have been here about 3 weeks. From the start i was never 100% on board with boarding school even though it was my idea. now that i am here i am going way downhill. I feel stripped of all my freedom they plan your meals, what you do before and after school and on weekends. I came here because i wanted structure in my life but i feel like i have no say. I cant plan my day or do what i want. I have been crying multiple times a day and have been getting panic attacks. I cant focus in class and a falling behind because I just focus on how much I hate it here. I feel stripped of myself. I haven’t been happy since I came here. I wake up in the morning and just start crying because I wish this was all a bad dream. Even when im with friends I have to force myself to smile and laugh because I am just miserable. I have never been this down and upset. It is not even homesick its just I miss the freedoms of y old school and I miss being happy. I have talked with my dad and a counselor here about switching back but they both want me to stay since its such a hassle to switch back. But I cant go on like this. I feel like a zombie i just drag through my day one task after another and then go to my room at the end of the night and cry because I hate it here. What do I do? Its only been three weeks and people say it gets better but I just feel so emotionally drained and tired and miserable all the time even when i go out and my school work is being affected. I just want to go home. I want to get a job and take pinao lessons that dont cost $50 per lesson. I want to choose what I eat for meals and when I eat. I want to have my own room back and be with my parents. I want my old self back. I was happy at home and now im miserable here. please help.
I’m sorry you are feeling this way. 
Three weeks isn’t enough time to give the place a fair chance. You’re still in the homesickness stage. Please continue to speak with the counselor regularly to help you cope and to give yourself someone to talk to. Make sure your advisor and dorm head know how you are feeling about things so they can support you.
Try to find at least 3 positive things in your day to focus on.
@boarderbeauty , you really need to talk to more adults at your school, besides the counselor, as doschicos says. It is true that your experience may become so untenable that everybody is forced to agree that you are better off going home. However, try to navigate this week with more help, from people who might offer different insights than your father and counselor have. Whatever is to happen, you cannot do it alone, and this forum cannot take the place of the adults at your school who should be responding to you. Hopefully, the counselor has informed teachers that you are distressed, and they should be receptive to listening to you. Unburden yourself, and try to listen to them back, as well, to have a dialogue. If you can put off making a final decision, great, we all, here on the forum, think that making a sincere effort to adjust would be ideal. But if you are determined to go home, no ifs and buts, tell the people at school that too.
From reading your posts, it sounds like things are worse for you than they were 10 days ago when you first posted about the feeling of it not being the right place for you. Since it is affecting your mental health so much, I hope you can get some help from a therapist there–ask at the health center and see whether they can help you with it, and if you need an outside therapist they may be able to arrange for one. Panic attacks and crying from morning to evening are signs of real distress, and shouldn’t be written off as homesickness. Thinking of you and hoping you get help and start to feel like yourself again.
Go to the health center and ask if there are any mental health counselors you can speak to. Sounds like you are going through a bit of different emotions. Would be good to seek professional help. Talking to a professional counselor can help more than you think in situations like this.
@boarderbeauty, thinking of you and hoping things are going better and you are getting some help.