<p>hey all you guys out there.</p>
<p>I really don't know how to start this off. I had an excelelnat sophomore year, it was fun, great, exhilarating, etc. But this year has taken a spin for the worse. I mean, I am taking all AP's, being that my school is an extrememly medicore high school. What's really bugging me is the attotude of the people in all my classes. My shool is small, my class is about 250 kids, so consequentially all the GATE program kids (gifted and talented) have been in the same classes every year since 6th grade when I transferred here to 8th grade, FOr various reason I got on bad terms with them...but I've since changed. I was arrogant, annoying, everyone knew I cheated on tests, dichted, slept in class,and recived subpar grades. The medium smart-kids in the class got annoyed with me and the smart ones looked down upon me. When I got to high school, I changed. In the 9th grades and 10th grades, since there were no honors classes, and so i had this fresh image with all the other people. I also had many senior friends (actaully almost all seniors) and had so much fun,etc. </p>
<p>THen juior year comes along and I'm stuck with the EXACT same people as in my 6th, 7th and 8th grade classes. And although I've completey changed, they still igore me copletely. They all pride themseles on perfectionism, and think I'm this stupid @@shole and are contiouslly surprised when I recieve good grades.
I basically have the same people in my classes all the periods. THe exact ame peole from 6th, 7th and 8th grade.UGH!!! And worse of all this will hurt me in my college recs cuz the teachers I will have next year (certain teachers teach certain courses, being a small school, you know your schedule since 9th grade bascially) are all I-hate-my-job slackers, and so I will really need my junior year teachers to give me the recs. Problem is, these students think so low of me, all the time. And I happen to sit next to the SAME people ALL SIX classes and they blatantly ignore me on purposeand actually look down upon me,i guess it hurts becuase I will be stuck with the for the entire year and school has only been going on four weeks. </p>
<p>THey smushed all these kids together to kinda foster "togetherness in learning" which is all a bunch of uselessness cuz then it gets segrated to groups.</p>
<p>And btw, i'm not crazy/hopless/deviant if you know what i mean, I'm prefectly normal and they already have this prediposed idea of me that just bugs the hell out of me. It just hurts to be ignored by them on purpose for no reason other than I made bad impressions on them. it's so rude and they still think I'm this useless wannabe who will go nowhere in life.They will go about cvarrying on their little conversations like I'm invisible. And when I won a big award they looked strangley at me. If it was for someone else, they would aways have clapped. I guess I need to stay strong cuase I only have a year and a half left of school before I send in the College apps. I am on good terms with all the other kids besides the GATE ones, but we don't have any classes together and all my senior friends are in colllege. I am in clubs, etc, but out school again is really segregated and people only hang out wiht peole of their own race. </p>
<p>Gah, what should I do
I really wished I went to a bigger school. I can't transger becuase all my grades, clubs, will be ruined 4 colllege.
(sorry I know this sounds like Dr. PHil)</p>