<p>boys...
for some reason I always have my best guy friend like me... then our relationship becomes super awkward because i never like them! It's happened about 4 times... and this year i'm praying to god not AGAIN!!</p>
<p>Alright, I can beat all of yours.</p>
<p>My two best friends are a girl, who we'll call "Zoe," and a boy, who we'll call "Mike." Near the beginning of this year, say right around October, the two of them started going out. This worked out great for me, because Mike is essentially my partner in crime and my relationship with Zoe had always been strictly platonic, which was exactly what we wanted (or so I thought). </p>
<p>The troubles started in November, when Zoe and I noticed that we were becoming increasingly attracted to one another, a situation we had never anticipated. She wasn't going to leave Mike, however, and I didn't want her to, so we agreed to just try to ignore the feelings. I was still getting over a fairly recent ex-girlfriend of eight months, so I was too damaged to start a relationship with anyone anyway.</p>
<p>The rest of it played out just like a movie script. She got to the point where she didn't feel anything for Mike any longer, but didn't leave him because neither of us wanted to hurt him. In January our resolve failed and we started an affair, with the plan that she'd wait until after Valentine's Day and then break it off with him. That seemed like it would work until her (abusive) father walked in on us, an event which I don't particularly want to re-live.</p>
<p>Zoe ended up breaking it off with Mike after he asked her if she were in love with me and she couldn't lie to him. Life is almost unbearable at this point, not because Mike is angry at me, but because he's heartbroken. The three of us still hang out together, but somehow the dynamic is different. I feel like allowing this to escalate is my greatest personal failing ever, because it's directly impacted the people I care most about for the worse.</p>
<p>Currently, Zoe and I are hooking up passionately, but still in secret. This is partially out of consideration for Mike, and partially because if we went public we'd be universally despised (there's little point, since rumours are going around anyway - everyone had always suspected me of being into Zoe, and it's just lucky that this time they're right).</p>
<p>I don't know what I'd be doing right now if I hadn't gotten into college / pulled my semester grades out of the hole. Those had been my main stressors earlier this year (severe depression is a *****), and if I were still worrying about those on top of everything in my personal life I just wouldn't be able to cope.</p>
<p>Not losing my music for orchestra, which is basically just a symbol for dealing with a bunch of stuff but still doing well in school and generally not being spacey and losing things.
And also this one person.</p>
<p>Finding a reason to get up in the mornings.</p>
<p>Looks like a good place to stress over...</p>
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<li>A girl whom I have been watching for the last 2 years (once said hi)</li>
<li>Admission results (especially from Vandy!)</li>
<li>Tons of homework and schoolwork (I am going to take Monbusho this June)</li>
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<p>and again that girl. GIRL GIRL GIRL GIRL GIRL GIRL GIRL!!!</p>
<p>work i'm avoiding</p>
<p>MelancholyDane, is that really true? Sounds kind of like a Law and Order episode I just saw, except the girl was in foster care and was pretending to be sixteen when she was really twenty eight, and one of the guys ended up killing the other guys....(okay, too much Law and Order for me!)</p>
<p>Doesn't sound like a healthy relationship at all. Are you two in college together, or is this still high school?</p>
<p>Lulu, I think it was you who asked what guys are into...I'm not a guy, but I know from observing other girls and myself that they're really into girls who are sure of themselves and confident. Which really sucks, because at the moment I am none of those two (I'm hoping that it's a temporary result of going through a break up).</p>
<p>There is no such thing as a "clean" break up!!</p>
<p>^I think that a clean and requited break up is possible, but just not very likely, especially in high school.</p>
<p>I don't really have issues, to be honest. I don't stress out, usually; I prepare for school stuff, and I deal with social stuff rather well.</p>
<p>I'd say the most stressful thing is...keeping a double life, lol. My parents can't find out about a lot of the stuff I do, who I date, what I get on tests, etc, and sometimes it's just really hard emotionally to keep those lives separate.</p>
<p>My friend is stressing me out. I think she's angry at me for something I said regarding colleges. Still.</p>
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<p>Do you have a folder for it? If not, you might want to get one.</p>
<p>My english teacher refuses to give anyone an A. Makes go crazy that I do all her work and i really believe i should get an A. Nobody cares though since she is the best teacher in our school.</p>
<p>have you talked to your school's academic counselor/dean yet?</p>
<p>My two best friends got in a fight several weeks ago and are no longer speaking to each other. As a result of this, my whole group of friends has broken up. Not because anyone was taking sides, but we've all just kind of grown apart. My other friends are now distant accquaintences <em>I haven't seen them in forever</em>, and for me to hang out with one of my best friends, the other can't be around.</p>
<p>I hate this high school b.s., but what's really sad is graduation is approaching. I was looking forward to going to the last dance of the year (it's held outdoors with lots of food), the prom, and sober grad night with everyone in a big group, but that's not happening... ;_;</p>
<p>a certain girl</p>
<p>actually just college for me... and all that other stuff related to it (fin. aid, forms, etc)
it's the only thing i feel i have no control over right now and its just a waiting game.</p>
<p>...</p>
<p>and i can't wait for graduation--high school is soooo boring.</p>
<p>girls on forum> guys on forum numerically</p>
<p>Numerous issues:
lack of date-able guys at my school
schoolwork
waiting to hear back from the 12 or so colleges left
losing 10 lbs</p>
<p>...but other than that, life's pretty good</p>
<p>The math test I'm going to be getting back on Tuesday. I think we're going to be lucky if the class average is a C... Terrified to know what I got.:(</p>
<p>Other than that, my irritating ex-best friend...sometimes I wonder why I was ever even friends with her...</p>
<p>I'm worried that I might get sick next week, because my sister is a germ magnet and is sleeping over her friend's house while her friend is sick. And the next two weeks are going to be very busy for various reasons.</p>
<p>Getting into a good college. Boys.</p>