<p>Nah I don’t think you’re clinically depressed.</p>
<p>Some of the most spiritual people I know hold down jobs. The job may not define them, it may not be what they thought they would do and it really doesn’t “interfere” with them as people, but it pays the bills, gets food on the table and a roof over their heads. Most of these friends have the most interesting books on the seats of their work vehicles. Learn to paint (like houses inside and out)…many of the most spiritual people we know are painters…maybe something about the quiet, the rhythm who knows…you’ll find something. Come to think of it we know a bricklayer that listens to classical music while he’s laying bricks. Find something to do with your hands so your mind is free and your bills are paid. Go learn how to frame houses…framing is for the young and strong of back and it’s mystical…ask any framer. </p>
<p>If you are 21 go ahead…bar tend…it’s an honorable thing to do at your age and you learn much standing on the other side of a bar.</p>
<p>Try to mend fences with your dad somewhere along the line. I agree, he did you a favor by setting you free.</p>