<p>I “need” to have friends and to be with them. They keep me sane. But I can’t hang out or go out two days in a row–gotta have my breaks. Also, there are things that I love to do that I don’t want my friends to know about, and so I reject hang out invitations in order to be alone and to do the things that I love, i.e. painting, writing, doing research projects. Partying or even going out for too long makes me feel guilty. I can’t have fun for long.</p>