Why do I feel like I don't care enough?

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that ideology is just pure wrong....

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<p>What in particular did you find wrong?</p>

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but I do not want to start a argument.

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<p>Why not? Go for it. This is an anonymous forum. If you have something to say, say it. You made a very categorical statement that what I said is "wrong"; it's not annoying that now you won't start an argument. What's annoying (though only slightly, as I really couldn't care less not because I don't respect you but because what I said apparently spoke to a couple of people [and that's all that I really care about] and because I am simply not defensive) is that you won't stand up and be counted and say why you think what I wrote is wrong. That, my friend, is chicken***t. Mean what you say and say what you mean, to quote that completely trite phrase.</p>

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Bedhead, I read all of that and it's genius. Thank you.

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second that. that was probably the most inspirational thing I've read on cc.

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<p>Well, what a relief! Somebody actually read it. I am glad it pleased or inspired or did other positive things for at least some. I actually thought that I had killed the thread. I mean, who knows, maybe Yellowenigma is really only experiencing a bit of burnout or senioritis that will pass after a couple of weeks of soap operas.... : )</p>

<p>I agree. that was a very thoughtful post. Of course, it's one thing to know about the fight, and another thing to be able to tell your self to actually join the fighting. Ultimately, it takes a epiphany to really get your ass off the computer and do something useful.</p>

<p>I've been like this...gee, let's see...my whole life! I'm the person who's calm as a lake (can't remember the proper saying :)) when the buildings on fire. Sure, I care about my grades, but in 10, 20 years, who's going to remember whether I got an A or B in Chem 3rd quarter Sophmore year? I feel like, if I stay above a certain bar (not too many B's, no C's, SAT's in the 2000's) I'll be able to get where I need to go. I'd rather live in the moment and not get a perfect score than study study study and have A's and no life. And, it's not even about partying all the time or anything like that. I want to play my guitar and write stories and act. These are the things I love. These are the things that matter to me. </p>

<p>I figure, if I don't get into Yale/Brown/insert top school here, it doesn't matter. People these days think that if they don't get into these places, they're nothing. That's not true. You are who you are, and you don't need anything or anyone to prove that for you. If you have the potential to be great, you don't need a school to prove that. I say, do things of my own volition that I want to do, and that I like to do. If I put passion and heart into the things I love, people will take more notice than if I got a piece of paper from an 'elite college.' If I'm going to change the world, I'm going to change it whether I went to community college or Oxford. </p>

<p>I'm an optimist. I'm alive, I'm free! Each day is a new day, and I'm going to live it to the fullest. And worrying all the time is not a part of that plan.</p>

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And, it's not even about partying all the time or anything like that. I want to play my guitar and write stories and act. These are the things I love. These are the things that matter to me. </p>

<p>I figure, if I don't get into Yale/Brown/insert top school here, it doesn't matter. People these days think that if they don't get into these places, they're nothing. That's not true. You are who you are, and you don't need anything or anyone to prove that for you. If you have the potential to be great, you don't need a school to prove that.

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<p>It took me several more years and a lot of suffering to get to where you are now. Don't slack off either in trying to get some modicum of good grades ('cause that'll mean you limit your options and it may make survival harder) or in trying to pursue guitar and write stories and other things that mean something to you ('cause that means you have passion, which gives you something that is yours and that anybody who is sane will end up envying you for mightily, if they don't have it, whether or not it leads you to success or wealth).</p>

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I'm an optimist. I'm alive, I'm free! Each day is a new day, and I'm going to live it to the fullest. And worrying all the time is not a part of that plan.

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<p>Cool for you.</p>

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Why not? Go for it. This is an anonymous forum. If you have something to say, say it. You made a very categorical statement that what I said is "wrong"; it's not annoying that now you won't start an argument. What's annoying (though only slightly, as I really couldn't care less not because I don't respect you but because what I said apparently spoke to a couple of people [and that's all that I really care about] and because I am simply not defensive) is that you won't stand up and be counted and say why you think what I wrote is wrong. That, my friend, is chicken***t. Mean what you say and say what you mean, to quote that completely trite phrase.

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<p>Because my friend... I do not want to make this 10 pages full of arguments.</p>

<p>I just stated that in the Real life not la la land(Where you obviously live) it does not work like that. I do not need to launch into a detailed analysis of what I found wrong and really don't care to. </p>

<p>Life is a bit different after College buddy....</p>

<p>Well if you're not going to back up your statements then why bother making them in the first place?</p>

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I just stated that in the Real life not la la land(Where you obviously live) it does not work like that. I do not need to launch into a detailed analysis of what I found wrong and really don't care to. </p>

<p>Life is a bit different after College buddy....

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<p>That's the best you can do? Ha. That's really funny. But it's also pretty cowardly. Look, I don't want to bust on you; I don't need to do so, though apparently you need to do so to me as your only path of criticism. I'll just say two things: 1) the first principle of living in la la land as you call it is to hide behind vagaries and not state who you are and what you are about succinctly. That is where, by your statement, it seems you are living. 2) What makes you think I have no life after college experience? I came to CC to help out a nephew of my much older sister. What I wrote I wrote because now working for an Ivy League school (not Princeton) and having lived a bit of life, I thought I had a bit of perspective to impart. Also, I can be a great procrastinator. But believe me: I have lived experiences that you probably have not thought real people live. They didn't happen in la la land. For you my advice would be really clear, from the sage: "It's better to open your eyes and say you don't understand than to close your eyes and say you don't see."</p>

<p>the OP can listen to some self-motivational audio books or read inspirational books. they really help.</p>