You’re a college freshman. You need to learn how to handle undergrad before you worry about grad school. Your mental health should be a priority. Please go to your counseling center and speak to someone.
@Depression314 you are not screwed. You are attending an amazing school but you do need to get yourself in a better place mentally so you can pursue your aspirations. Please go to the counseling center and speak with someone and make an appointment to meet with your academic advisor as well.
Um, you had at least a dozen replies before you said you had no replies.