<p>I studied for a couple hours at night, 3-4 on weekends (both days). This is probably irrelevant though. I don’t mind working hard at all or studying a lot. What I mind is not knowing what I’m working for and feeling like my efforts won’t really matter or help anybody. I feel like ultimately no job is “fascinating” and there isn’t really a job for me to be completely passionate about as I had hoped there was.
Over the past 5-6 years or so, I used to frequently stay up late to read a lot about my major. I would travel to attend open conferences and fairs, participate in contests, make plans for grad school, do summer research. Now I feel like I can’t be bothered and look forward to being done with school stuff as soon as possible. I’m not sure how this happened. I feel like my school’s atmosphere has done this to me but, I know that this is obviously wrong and coming from myself. How can I come up with a clear career path, one that I won’t get tired of in a few years?</p>
<p>My writing is indeed rather poor but I’m good at other things.</p>