<p>I tried to strangle myself today and it was great. Seriously, it's like all your problems go away and all you can think of is "do I really want to die? No, I don't actually. Death is scary." Besides, it takes real effort to tie your shirt around your neck and find a good place to tie the other end, and go to a place where you know no one's watching. And that effort is good for distraction.</p>
<p>The downside is you can die. That used to be its best feature. But now it feels kind of scary and I'm always careful to loosen the rope before my head explodes.</p>
<p>You know, I used to read about cutters and wonder why they did what they did. But now I kind of understand. Anyway, strangling is better than cutting because it doesn't leave scars (the marks around your neck fade pretty quickly) and no one can tell you've done it unless they find you dead. But if people hear about it, they get pretty freaked and send you to the hospital. I hope my parents don't send me there this time. I think I'll just keep quiet.</p>
<p>Anyway, don't strangle yourself. It does more harm than good. I don't know why I wrote this long post about it. I think I just need someone to talk to.</p>
<p>You should stop that, and I’m being very serious. One of my best friend’s little brother died from doing that. His death and the days that followed were by far the saddest thing I’ve ever seen. </p>
<p>Even if you don’t intend to commit suicide, don’t play around with it. You have no idea what it will do to your family, friends, and even people you don’t know.</p>
<p>You know, life isnt really all that bad.
whats sobering to me is watching those TLC shows about the elephant man, the world’s fattest man, or seven year olds going on seventy</p>
<p>If I know you in real life I would call you and invite you over right now so we can do something fun. </p>
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<p>It was not, because it may be potentially addicting and you may end up killing yourself one day. The next time you feel like trying to strangle yourself, just come to HSL instead— it’s way better.</p>
<p>Hmm, this reminds me a bit of California’s Mock Trial case last year in which a comedian is accused of strangling a critic who killed the comedian’s career.</p>
<p>But really, don’t try strangling yourself. You might regret it when it’s already too late.</p>
<p>Yes, it is horribly addicting. At one point I strangled myself every day. Now it’s been 110 days since I’ve strangled myself … except I just did it today, so now I’m back to 0. Damnit.</p>
<p>I did call a suicide hotline today … but I told her about my problems and she just sided with my sister. Maybe the ones in my area just suck. At least they keep your hands off your neck for 20-30 minutes. I guess that’s the point, anyway … to make sure you don’t do something dumb.</p>
We have a chatroom going on AIM sometimes too.</p>