I really don’t like school, but love learning. At home I watch college lectures and learn more on my own than at school. Because I put so much time into my own learning my grades suffer. I have a 93 average, but I know that I can easily achieve a 99 if I tried my best at school. I think I want to go to MIT for Computer Science, but I don’t think my grades are there for me to do it. This year I will be going into 10th grade and planned on actually trying so that my grades would be good and I could get in. I then saw this video (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y_ZmM7zPLyI) and believe every word he says. I always say stuff like this and know it’s true. Well then why am I considering otherwise? There are some smart people at colleges and I feel that I could learn a lot, but then again I’m not sure. If I do decide to go I don’t want to get passed over by someone of lesser intellect because I didn’t believe in the system. I can’t word my question into a line; it’s just trying to work out this whole problem. Mark Twain did say “I never let schooling get in the way of my education”
You are struggling with a common problem, a love of learning that isn’t always reflected in an accountable way, versus jumping through the hoops that shows accountability in the forms of grades and test scores as a means to an end, in this case a certain level of college admission. You have to decide where you fall, and accept the outcomes/opportunities as a result. Some kids are willing to jump through every hoop and others are not. It is great that you are thinking about it.
“Dilemma”
I’m sure a lot of us have/had that same issue. Many of my HS classes were either boring or otherwise not too intriguing (there were some interesting ones though), but I was able to find interesting things outside of the normal school routine (EC’s, clubs, math circles, sports - not necessarily school-sponsored). I encourage you to do the same.
I am a designer for my schools yearbook and love it. I am also in French club and business club.
Why does learning on your own make you do worse in school?
Do you have the option of taking classes at a local college? (This is free in some states, so you should talk to your guidance counselor if it interests you.)
It hurts my grades because instead of spending time studying I will use that time to watch a lecture or something. Once I get to be a Junior I can take some college classes through a program, but that isn’t an option at this point.
Why aren’t you interested in studying the material for your classes?
My classes don’t interest me. I’m not sure what I want to be when I grow up, but I’m interested in Computer Science, politics, and design. I do well in math and science because that interests me, and in certain lessons in History I do well. (By well I mean I really try and thus experience the best grades). The teachers seem to be so inside the box too. Once in a while I’ll be interested in something and ask further only to receive a reply like “You won’t learn that until college” or “I’m not sure”. Also why should I learn their version of this when if I want to know it I can just pick up a book and teach it to myself? None of my teachers seem to get me. They see that I’m smart and “a good student”, but they don’t quite get what I do. I score higher on state exams than people with 99 averages and get advanced across the board so I’m not just not smart enough to do it. My schools administration and the people at it are very “conservative” and “traditional”. They don’t like to change things, think outside the box, or do anything creative. I want to strive, learn, achieve, and improve, but I feel like I’m stuck in a system that is limiting and standardized. I go to “honors” math only to be given a worksheet and an hour of time, when at home I get a lecture on discrete algebra and all the unlimited materials I want. At school they tell you what to wear, how to sit, and what you can do when at home I can do whatever I want and learn without limits. Naturally my time/effort allocation goes to when I’m at home.
Also sorry for the erroneous spelling in the title. 
When I type I tend to just let my thoughts flow and fix spelling errors at the end.