I’ve spent a lot of time in mental hospitals for my bipolar. As in over six months of my life. I’ve had an extremely severe case (ultra-ultra rapid cycling from 9 to 12) most of my life. It’s affected my everyday life to the extreme. But I’ve always been a good student. At community college I’ve gotten two B’s after 76 credits. A year and a half ago I decided to major in engineering. I received A’s in all three calculus classes, A’s in university chemistry 1 and 2, an A in physics 1, an A in graphics, and an A in intro to engineering. I know I have the intelligence and I think I have the study skills, but I’m really worried the stress of school. Everyone tells me that it’s so difficult and that it made their life hell for four years. I got A’s in all of those classes, but it was at community college. . . Which makes me question it too.
I’m just really worried by what I’ve read on here and what people have told me in real life. I don’t know what to do. I know if I wasn’t bipolar I could do it. But people have said at what cost and if it’s truly worth it.
Does anyone have any advice or experience? Is engineering as bad as everyone says?
I should say that I’m doing the best I’ve ever done, but I still struggle a ton.
Sorry for the long post and please don’t pity me. . .
You have an extremely good start to your college career, and the study habits you learned from those classes will not go away even if university classes are a bit more demanding. You may get a few more B’s, but I highly doubt you’ll do all that badly after such a high achieving track record. Believe 
@bodangles Thank you Bodangles. I hope you’re right, and you are right about just believing. Thanks for the vote of confidence!
You might want to look for a university with a collaborative student environment which I think can reduce stress. Also look into the programs the schools offer for academic and mental health support. Even if you don’t end up needing the support it might make you feel more confident knowing that it is there if you should need it.
Thanks for the advice @nordicdad , I appreciate it. I’ve gotten help for my disability at college before, but you’re right. And I haven’t thought about the student part of it. I think you’re right!
Engineering school has a reputation for being tough. It is a well deserved reputation but good study skills and setting yourself up to work in a collaborative environment (which the college will encourage) are critical to success. Most colleges will offer academic and mental health support. So you should do fine it sounds like. Most schools will also provide accommodations for students that need them, be it extra time for exams or the like.