@inthegarden Thank you so much for your response! I know it’s really stupid that I’m stressing out so much about the letters of recommendation but you’re exactly right that I don’t want to inconvenience my teachers. I know that they have a lot to do and a lot of letters to write, so it just seems like a lot of work to put on their plate when I didn’t do much to make their jobs any easier (like answering questions or participating in discussions).
I’m definitely drawn to the fields of education and psychology for the reasons that you described. I want to help people. I can see how my avoidance of the recommendations is hypocritical I guess and not a good idea, so I’ll just have to get over my fear and ask for them anyway.
And thanks for the book recommendations, I’ll look for them!