It’s funny really, all our lives we’re taught to chase after this materialistic value in society. Let it be prestige, money, fast friendships, test scores, and GPA.
I always use to beat myself over a 93 on an exam. I wondered how much smarter those other students were when they finished the homework early or the guy who turned in his test after 5 mins. I wanted to be the one closer to a 4.0 GPA.
This was the worst time of my life and I don’t think I’ll ever go back to being this person who had to be the best. I teach a Computer Science program to underrepresented minorities/girls and my grades are just average now. My GPA fluctuates back and forth and it’s no longer this thing that hangs over my head. My friends are always talking about their internships but I just don’t care. I don’t care because I’m doing what I want to be doing. I’ve decided that my life won’t be revolving around how much money I’m going to make out of college.
Something I’ve come to appreciate is how much more power I have when I’m able to control what I want to value. It’s satisfying to know that I don’t have to be the best, I just have to do the things I want to do. But hey, all of us have different goals and purposes, I hope you find yours.