<p>Thanks. I didn’t have time to read my post earlier and now I see that I really just rambled, but I suppose rambling (or automatic writing?) is an efficient outlet? The only downfall is that that which is produced by automatic writing is rarely something to be proud of.</p>
<p>I have researched a few of his novels and histories, and I decided to start with Rising Up and Rising Down, not because of the length but because the topic interests me very, very much (the successful use of the thematic element of the history of violence within Cormac McCarthy’s Blood Meridian was, in my opinion, the reason that Blood Meridian is such a masterpiece, and a passage near the end of The Savage Detectives is concerned with the history of violence, though to a lesser degree). But Amazon failed me for all except the abridged version, which I am not interested in, Borders obviously failed me, and both Page One and Page One Too failed me (but a clerk at Page One Too said that the database showed that there was a copy of the seven volume set in 2004, which temporarily elevated my hopes). When I was informed that the cheapest seven volume set is about $500, and that after that the next cheapest is $700 and then $2200, I gave up (at least for now) and I decided to start with Europe Central. Have you read Europe Central in its entirety? And you mentioned starting Rising Up and Rising Down earlier–do you have the seven volume edition from McSweeney’s, and if so, how did you obtain it?</p>
<p>That reminds me: Who here regularly reads McSweeney’s? I don’t, as I cannot currently afford the subscription price, but I have picked up a few copies of various ‘episodes’, and they are fantastic (particularly the comic book volume–something I never thought I would admit!).</p>
<p>I recently started an independent study with my high school creative writing teacher that is focused on Eliot’s idea of the modern incarnation of the ‘mega-novel’ as a classically inspired and concerned epic that revolves around perception and modernity. My teacher decided to focus on Modernist novels, meaning that, even though he also adores Bolano, we are not going to read 2666 as part of the project, but we will read Ulysses and In Search of Lost Time, as well as a possible third work. (Any ideas for Modernist novels that fit the ‘epic’ theme that I have been talking about?) This independent study, I realized today, is very reminiscent of many of the classes that I have seen at Deep Springs–not in subject matter, but in the breadth of the topic–and it made me excited once again for the application process. Recently I have been focusing on the Chicago application (Chicago being my second choice), but I am going to shift my focus again back to DS (the application for which is much more demanding, of course).</p>
<p>Even though I am not extremely left, I respect that very much. I wish I could convince myself to be fiscally left–maybe you could try to convince me? We should have an argument about this, if you don’t mind. I don’t care if we have it over private messages or in this thread, but I have been looking for someone to convince me to be fiscally left. My odd-sounding desire to be fiscally left is as such: I was raised libertarian (just as the vast majority of teenagers have the same political affiliations as their parents), and I very much believe in freedom (in topics such as free-market just as in topics such as free-speech) and individual rights; on the other hand, my aforementioned respect for fiscally left voters (and people too young to vote such as myself and, as far as I know, you, I suppose) lies in the very idealism that you mentioned. They all (well, not the liberals that are liberal only because of their friends or parents, but the idealistic liberals who are educated and who question their beliefs) seem to have a passionate drive for social freedom, a freedom that only seems to be possible in a somewhat monitored state of fiscally-limited freedom. I found myself empathizing with Howard Roark in The Fountainhead when I read it two years ago, even when he destroyed a home for unfortunate people. This empathy is double sided: on one hand, the idealism (an idealism more often found in liberals) displayed is awe-inspiring, as is the love for art; on the other hand, I agreed that artistic integrity, individual rights, and other related topics are more important than tainted charity.
So, I know it sounds like I am already playing some twisted form of devil’s advocate against myself, and I am, in a sense. I want to hear an argument against my fiscally right beliefs so that I can use logic and reasoning–rather than preconceived notions implanted by my parents and friends–to decide for myself. I may stay libertarian, I might change. I am entirely open-minded, but, having said as much, please be as brutal against my beliefs as possible. I don’t mind criticism.
[[[Also, as a side note, you said that, in a landscape void of taxes, youth is the optimal stage in which to be idealistic–a notion that I agree with 100%, but, though I am only 17 and unable to vote, I am currently paying for State and Federal taxes alike, as well as medicare (which, because I am 17, does not benefit me) and Social Security on every check I receive at my part time job, which, because I cannot yet vote, is taxation without representation. Does the Declaration of Independence not demand that any group that finds themselves, in America, paying taxes without representation not only make a point but to take arms in defense of their rights? I am not suggesting that taxes should not exist, of course, and I also am not suggesting that 17 year-olds should be able to vote, but I should not, so long as I cannot yet vote, have to pay taxes–especially, but not limited to, the taxes which do not directly benefit me; state and federal taxes both pay for services that I do use such as roads (even though, being unable to vote, I should not have to pay for them either), but medicare and social security have no impact on me except a decreased weekly pay. Alright, this rant is over, but it plays into the founding for my fiscally right-oriented beliefs.]]]</p>
<p>Also (haha as if this post needs any more text), you said that hopefully you can be as well trained of an intellectual and writer as Vollmann–do you want to be an author after your formal education? Or did you only mean that you hope to be able to write as well as he can? One way or another, someone as obviously intelligent as you doesn’t need Deep Springs to have a successfully Faustian intellectual life–but that isn’t to say that Deep Springs wouldn’t help! My college counselor said that, for any independent yet socially founded scholarly intellectual, Deep Springs is the single greatest college in the world. It sounds like a perfect fit for you.</p>
<p>I think my post warrants a epigraph-like apology of an epilogue from Pascal, Lincoln, and Twain:
I am sorry to have written such a long letter, but I did not have time to write a short one.</p>