<p>That feeling of dread and anxiety mixed up with misery and a hint of failure. I always thought the college process was suppose to be a relief from our high school terrors, a chance of freedom and new experiences. Little did I know, that college applications would only fill me with more apprehension then ever before. Yes, we've taken the necessary precautions to achieve that dream, and if you're reading this thread, then the dream was to reach an Ivy League; Cornell in particular. However, as the days grow longer I have come to realization that my dream will end in a rejection. According to my SAT scores I'm probably going to become a janitor, or be promoted at McDonalds to the fry cook position. What's worse, is that I see the failure and disappointment in my parents eyes. It's okay when you write in pain by yourself, but when you're hurting because you let others down....well that's a whole another story entirely. I'm at my wit's end because although I know that it's too late, I had hope. I was and still want to hope for a miracle. A sheer chance of luck, with an admissions officer just granting my one wish: admission. That's all I ask for...how hard is that, right? Sigh. How pathetic for me to keep hope alive, it was the one thing that kept me going in the morning. It was the one thing that allowed me to face a certain student who recieved a full ride to Yale. It was the one thing that was mine, a secret all my own. But now I'm just left with tear stained pillows as I cry my tear ducts empty. So in the essence of it all, have you gotten that feeling of dread yet? If so ...how did you deal? </p>
<p>I started a prayer circle, I know crazy. But we do turn to god in the most darkest hours, and I possibly am going through one. Who knows, but I've lost my hope completely and pretty much guaranteed myself a rejection....</p>
<p>Don’t lose hope! All you can do is leave your options open and hope for the best… don’t be so dramatic in thinking that your best option other than Cornell is to work for McDonald’s. If you’re shooting high enough to apply to Cornell, there are tons of schools out there that would definitely want you and could greatly benefit from your presence. You never know, you may find something else that would better suit you. For now, though, don’t let it bog you down. The SATs will be long and forgotten after high school, don’t allow them to be a judging factor of your intelligence, they really aren’t. Good luck!</p>
<p>Stop being overdramatic. You’re one of a sea of high school seniors who will or will not get into an Ivy League and, regardless of whether or not they get in, will go on to college, gets jobs, be hurt by people and hurt people in turn, experience a flood of agonies and disapointments punctuated by glorious and brief points of happiness, and then die. Now shush and wait for March 31st with the rest of the boys, girls, and undecideds.</p>
<p>pnl09 and dko I’m thankful for your optimism, and your right SATs are becoming a dwindling thing of the past, hopefully that will work in all of our favors. I guess I was looking for an outlet with all my anxiety, and in most cases it comes down to my writings. I’m glad I shared it on here it was actually quite therapeutic. And don’t worry I won’t stop praying =] haha I actually find it comforting. </p>
<p>karajanhra - OVERDRAMATIC is my middle name, but I like how you shedded some light on this topic. yes, we will all die eventually but why not make the most of it; starting with an ivy education?! as for everything else…you try being the eldest daughter to immigrant asian parents who believe your already a failure and have you on house arrest most your life AND THEN are confirmed of your failing qualities once the rejections pour in. Could you stare them back in the eye as a disappointment? I’m not worried for me as much as I am for my parents… sarcasm is a gift use it nicely ey?</p>
<p>^I believe more college applicants are immigrant Asians than you assume, with parents that demand just as much. Don’t worry, you’re not alone, and oddly life has a way of working itself out. It’s cliched, but true that there’s more than one path to the same destination.
Good luck!</p>
<p>^I believe more college applicants are immigrant Asians than you assume, with parents that demand just as much. Don’t worry, you’re not alone, and oddly life has a way of working itself out. It’s cliched, but true that there’s more than one path to the same destination.
Good luck!</p>
<p>CaddyBJ your probably right but even in the Asian division we have branches. For example when it comes down to grades its almost always (at my school) the “brown” or “desi” asians, meanging those of the Indian/Pakistani/Bengali subcontinent VS. the (don’t take it offensively) the “yellow” asians or you know the chinese/korean/japanese/phillipines…it’s like a battle of the asians out there! But it does help to know that I’m not on my own in that pool life does have a funny way of working out. I mean even President Obama transferred to Columbia…if all else fails I’m thinking TRANSFER! Thanks for the optimism, I definitely need some in my present days. :)</p>
<p>okay, first off, don’t go playing the whole “poor me, i have asian parents” card. i’m the ONLY daughter to asian immigrant parents who threaten to disown me twice a month, and frankly, i could care less. a) ultimately, i, and not them, control my own journey in life, and b) i realize that they would only be disappointed in my because they believe that i have so much more potential. think about it - who would actually be disappointed about that B: a parent who thinks their kid is an F student, or a parent who knows that their kid is smart enough to get the A? be glad that your parents have enough faith in your abilities to feel disappointed when you make the occasional mistake.</p>
<p>secondly, i’ve sort of been in your position (with the nervousness, minus the melodramatics). i applied to penn ed, got deferred. obsessing about the outcome in the week leading up to the decision did not help one bit - in fact, if anything, it hurt my chances, because i was getting so distracted from my schoolwork. this time, i decided to be a bit more rational. no wishing at 11:11, no constantly checking the website, no bugging my friends, and <em>definitely</em> no prayer circles. guess what? i still got my cornell cals acceptance letter two days ago. hmm, looks like the obsessing REALLY serves no purpose, yeah?</p>
<p>anyway, enough of my rant. good luck, though, and really - just relax. odds are, wherever you end up going, you’re gonna love the whole college experience.</p>
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