<p>Right now, I am very ambitious about attending UW (University of Washington) Seattle campus, UCLA, UC Berkeley, or University of Oregon. </p>
<p>I'm currently a high school junior in Running Start (earning dual credits for high school and college) and since I'm planning on going full time for the rest of my high school education, if I pass all my classes, I'll graduate high school with an Associate's Degree and go to Uni as a junior rather than a freshmen. However, Running Start students still apply as a Freshmen.
Throughout high school, I have been dealing with severe depression and mild social anxiety. I am still battling today, but coping has become much more easy. I was professionally diagnosed during the first month of my sophomore year when I was 14; but I have been dealing with depression, anxiety, and self harm since early middle school. Other things like family financial and health issues, insomnia, anemia, peer relationships, self acceptance, etc. have contributed as well. My freshmen year wasn't the best. My GPA for the whole year was like 3.0.
So far, every year since my sophomore year has been difficult. I began seeing a psychologist in September of 2011 and stopped in June of 2012. Because of financial issues, I haven't been able to go back so I've been seeing a counselor at the college on a weekly basis. It's free and convenient in terms of location. I've for the most part quit self-harming, but sometimes I have terrible relapses that last weeks on end and I eventually give in.
I have attempted suicide multiple times throughout middle and high school; but I could never go through with more "gruesome" plans or bring myself to go as far as I wanted. I guess it was because I was tired of always feeling like poo and felt like I wanted to die, but I didn't want to give up because I knew life would get better... Sort of like a deep-down hopefulness. Although I'm still struggling and still have suicidal thoughts every now-and-then, I'm glad I didn't go through with a successful suicide.
Basically, what I'm trying to say is that my school performance hasn't been the best. My cumulative GPA is around a 2.4. My attendance since 7th grade has been terrible; after about a month of school, I'd miss at the least one day of school per week. I'm still working on it, but my attendance is a bit better now. I've taken a few advanced courses during my freshmen and sophomore year; Honors English both freshmen and sophomore year and APUSH during sophomore year (I failed this class though T-T). These were the only AP and Honors classes available to freshmen and sophomores at the time.
I am no longer taking any advanced courses because of Running Start and the only class I'm taking at the high school is for credit recovery.</p>
<p>I've been attempting to participate in some clubs and sports:
-Cross Country; sophomore year as a runner and I was a manager this year
-Green Team; freshmen year
-RBR my freshmen year
-JROTC; majority of my sophomore year (I dropped the class a few weeks before first semester ended because I was catching up on other classes but joined again for second semester) and first semester of this year</p>
<p>I already have more volunteer hours than required but I am still aiming to volunteer during the summer and breaks just for fun and not solely for the purpose of having volunteer hours. </p>
<p>I'm extremely motivated to do the best that I can during my senior year:
-Tennis
-Maybe swimming (I am still contemplating because of mild asthma and self-harm scars)
-99017984612452% into schoolwork
-Attending high school class meetings
-Student body and international club at the college
-Join band at the high school</p>
<p>Oh, and I'm getting a job in late April of this year. </p>
<p>I'm seriously working my butt off to be more happy and successful because feeling down all the time and using that as an excuse to jeopardize my chances of going to one of my top choice Universities makes me more upset than it should. </p>
<p>After seeing a psychologist for a while, I realized what I wanted to do with my life. To be a child counseling psychologist! I am very enthusiastic when it comes to psychology and I am determined to be a psychologist. I also love foreign language and culture and music; I want to study abroad, advance in my knowledge of the Chinese language, and study music as well.
I have studied Chinese my first two years of high school, and I am taking Korean my senior year at the college I'm doing Running Start at. I also understand and speak a little bit of Tagalog (my mom is Filipino) and I am learning German from my dad; he grew up in Germany.</p>
<p>My high school counselor told me that because I have dealt with many hardships that affected my school performance, she thinks I still have a good chance of being accepted and to write all about it in my Personal Statement. I know that grades and test scores aren't the only things that colleges look at... but I still feel so doubtful that any of these colleges will accept me. </p>
<p>What do you guys think?
And sorry for the length. lol</p>