<p>So!
The reason I came to my university was not because they had the major I wanted (they didn't) but because they had the ENVIRONMENT I wanted (large deaf AND hearing population). So, now I'm here majoring in Communications (it's a technical school, if you're feeling stalkerish you can probably figure out where I'm going just with all the criteria I've given thus far). The problem is, I really miss English literature as a major. It's really not offered here, for obvious reasons. I felt like I actually used my brain more when I majored in that, whereas now majoring in basic Communication courses I'm only learning to be nice to people in a social setting - which is all well and good but I miss learning new things by reading amazing literature I probably wouldn't have picked up otherwise.</p>
<p>I planned to concentrate in a technical writing area, but eh...I don't know much about that. And yeah, I'm an idiot for not knowing much about my major. I just really, sometimes I don't know what I think I'm getting out of this major, to be honest. despite the fact that English Lit. has a bad rep, I miss it a lot and wish I hadn't given in to conventional wisdom and switched out of a major that I really enjoyed because I was actually learning things I could apply to what I want to do in life (write novels. And yeah, I know I don't have to major in literature or creative writing to get a novel published, but since I wanted a college experience and for certain reasons I probably wouldn't be able to get a job without a BS, I figured I may as well.)</p>
<p>If I transferred to another school because of the wrong major, I would have to give up being in just the right mix of deaf and hearing folks. I would have to go back to maybe being surrounded by a ton of hearing people who make me feel like an idiot because I can't understand them - whereas with Deafies, even if I don't understand them I don't freak out as much because...eh, I don't know why. I just like Deafies better I guess. It's funny because I actually don't know that much ASL and use a lot of PSE to communicate with Deafies, meaning I can't hop into their conversations just like I can't hop into hearie conversations. But eh...</p>
<p>Anyways! I don't know if I should transfer out back to a degree that people say 'goes nowhere.' I did enjoy it, but at the same time I feel like if I leave this school, I'll lose what progress I've made in becoming less of a hermit.</p>
<p>If I did transfer back to English Literature, I would have to figure out something to DO with it, I do need a job after all. I thought of being an English lit teacher...but I think I'm too immature for that. I still think of most of my kid years in school in terms of horror stories and not in terms of the good times I actually did have (not as often as I could have, but let's not make this into another 'my childhood sucked' story, eh?)</p>
<p>So...I guess I don't really know where this post is going, since I don't know if I want to transfer out again, and if I did, where the hell would I go where I could meet a lot of Deaf people (not Gallaudet, that's not going to work because I can't sign well AND I have a small issue of being legally blind. I'd be sooo isolated there since I can't just 'pick up' signs by watching or revert to English when I want.)</p>