<p>I would like to say that I, too, have had damaging people in my life - Whom, on the surface came off as being extremely caring would make it seem that my life was worth more than theirs. All with the guise of me making the world a better place, and me being someone that they could believe in, and made the world a better place, just by his vast presence in a shared space. All the while feeding me the poisonous water of the earth, and various toxins inhaled, in strong efforts of distracting me from my true benevolent (omnipotent) calling. Sometimes they’ve made me feel like JC, though upon much research, micro analyzed details about my own life, and close talking talks with many clergymen, I seem to have more in common with the He that is known as Shiva.</p>
<p>Only those closest to me (and the clergy who I’ve had close talking talks with) know this. It shall all be visible in 12/2012.</p>
<p>ShrunkenHeads is a riot. The message, to me, equates to a sketch from a variety show and I do like variety shows. To answer the question, freckleback, I am not considering anything other than GS and remaining at my current institution. Cambridge also has what I am looking for, but you know as well as I that the competition is fierce.</p>
<p>I suppose my existence is rather magical. I’m glad you’ve taken notice, shooter.</p>
<p>I’ve been told that I am empirical evidence that God exists. (true story)</p>
<p>I don’t believe I was conceived miraculously, although…this could be an explanation as to why my father seems to be holding a lifelong grudge against my mother. I’d also question my wife’s loyalty, at the sight of a bulged belly, without any prior copulation. Now that’s a Quandary.</p>
<p>If yes: APPLY.
If maybe: APPLY.
If no: DON’T APPLY.</p>
<p>If you’re accepted, you can commence torturing yourself with all manner of difficult questions about what’s right for you. But until that happens, there seems little point in giving it so much wrenching thought.</p>
<p>Ok, I have come to the conclusion that I will indeed apply next year for Fall 2012. I have written an essay with which I am satisfied. But I do look at the perks of remaining at my current campus. The location is good, and the courses leave a little to be desired but the library does not. I know that my goals can still be accomplished having attended either institution, but I will have more of a voice (so to speak) after having attended GS. At this stage, I hope that I am not misdirected and falsely presume that New York offers more, as my motivation is academic challenge. I have always believed it serves its purpose.</p>
<p>So if I change my mind the reason is probably greater ties to the current university. This means that I am forging strong ties with the school community and that I would rather not make a move. Let me just say it. Eighty percent of my existance is committed to applying.</p>
<p>The debate is one of applying and one of re-settling if the opportunity arose. It is not so much the distance, but the fact of starting fresh. Don’t get me wrong since I’d truly be appreciative of a transfer to a mid-Atlantic institution. As I mentioned there is a certain draw for to the GS, but I don’t want to be hasty and select for the wrong reasons. The application is only part of the process. The rest is getting over what has happened in terms of lack of the right type of support (in years past) from family and associations. These events are minuscule to some, and grand to others. I never truly knew how much my family never wanted me to obtain a degree of my choosing until recently. If I had known that their conversations about university were false I would ahve long ago changed my environment. But this cannot behelped now. The only thing that I can do is get some form of justice, namely, an attorney and try to pick away at the snowball that has grown all the greater. To explain where I am coming from now in this is tantamount to a doctoral thesis and proabably not worth the effort. So, let me end by saying I have an interest because of my field, a right because I am a true student, and a goal because this is what I have been aiming for over the years only now has this aim made itself manifest in the form of a potential application. </p>
<p>I am excited that everyone is gaining acceptance and selecting to attend based on goals and, if I may, presence of what they truly have worked for over time. I find it a great thing to be a student and an even greater responsibility to live up to the expectation that life itself is made all the better. If I am accepted perhaps I, too, will enroll thereby joining you all months from now on campus. I am glad that I am not alone in the push to self teach and walk in bigger shoes. I know that our reasons may vary, but perhaps the goal is the same and that is to gain a significant document at the end of enrollment.</p>