<p>Well, wasn't sure where to put this since there is no general "help with my career choice" forum. This, although I guess an off-topic forum, will work I hope.</p>
<p>Anyway, I just want to get some advice from people here on what they think I should do because like most people in college, I'm incredibly frikin confused. I'll be sharing a bunch about myself (talents, skills, what I enjoy, how I did in school etc), so could possibly be long... just warning you.</p>
<p>Well, to start off thing off... I'm a sophmore at a community college in NY. I went to Hofstra University for freshmen year but left for financial reasons (even with a 45,000 scholarship I still woulda owed around 80 grand, it's nuts!). Now I'm planning on finishing off this year and going to a SUNY--probably Geneseo or Binghamington.</p>
<p>I'll start things off with my high school career. In high school was a relatively smart kid. I half-assed my way to an 87 average and a 1200 something on my SATs. I took a bunch of AP's and always listened in class (I had to be there anyway), but refused to do anything else for some insane reason. I really excelled in math and enjoyed physics and calculus, but dropped all of that when I went to college (other than some simple business math course req). I decided to be an accounting major while I was there because... well... there's lot of oppurtunity there and they make a bit of money and... hmmm... I was really just being stupid. I don't know what I was thinking, lol, but after recieving a 3.8 something the first semester and register for second semester I realized I needed to think through *** I wanted to do with my life. I'm a REALLY organized person and just don't like having that mystery in my life. I enjoy when things I planned. A few weeks ago when I recovered from my shoulder injury and started lifting weights and eating well again I wrote exactly what I'd be doing and eating at almost every hour every damn day of the week! I'm nuts lol, but it helps me reach my goals and eases my mind.</p>
<p>Anyway, so I started thinking about what I wanted to do and realized I needed to transfer--I had a 3.89 GPA after the first year of college was out (finally got the work ethic and determination I always needed). I also came to the conclusion that I enjoyed writing and reading--something I wasn't too fond of in high school. Actually, I didn't mind writing, it was the reading part I didn't enjoy. I liked to read as a kid and through out middle school, but when high school came I got plagued with something that caused me to believe reading was dumb and I shouldn't do it. Plus most of the books sucked and I managed to do well without reading. I regret this now because it's definitely held me back, but I still managed to excell in my college writing and lit classes (did well in all my classes essay-wise actually). </p>
<p>So with a good GPA and my butt on it's way to a CC, I still had LOTS to think about...</p>
<p>First off, I come from a upper-middle class town and my parents are pretty well off. Because of that I'm used to having money, although I am damn cheap, and want money. Maybe it's not just because of my situation though because I'm assuming most of us want money, lol... might not cause happiness, but sure doesn't hurt! So, I thought, hey, why not be a lawyer? I am probably the most arguementative person alive and I'm ashamed to say this but I love being right. Maybe a love for logic and no liking to read and write isn't a great reason to be a lawyer, and obviously the money issue definitely isn't a great reason either... but it was an idea--one that my parents support, lol. Yet, do I REALLY want it? I don't know. And that doesn't seem like a good enough answer, especially when I need to dedicate 3 years of life to law school (that happens to cost A LOT). On top of that, I don't know if it'd even be worth it if I didn't land myself into one of the top 14 schools... and who knows if I'm smart enough for that. I mean, come on, 170+ on my LSATs is DAMN hard supposively and the fact that I'm probably behind reading-wise doesn't help and it definitely doesn't make me feel better when I'm told you can't exactly improve scores by studying.</p>
<p>So, then what am I to do? At least being a lawyer is straight foward and I have a dream to work for (hopefully an attainable one). But I still don't think I really want it--the money is great and it can be a lucrative job, but the hours suck, as does the schooling and the pressure I'd be putting on myself as well. Is it really worth it for something I'm not even sure about?</p>
<p>From there I start thinking about my other interests:</p>
<p>In high school all I did was play video games and skateboard. And video games, although still fun, aren't as good as they once were to me (still can't deny I love 'em though). And I doubt either that or skateboarding is about to land me a good career. It makes me happy that I was so darn productive, lol! Anyway, so I get to thinking about things that are somewhat realistic...</p>
<p>Math and sciences, why not pursue these? Well because I feel like they'd get boring an repetitive--kinda the same deal with accounting. I know a lot of jobs will be repetitive and often boring, but I have doubts about this line of work. I don't think having a career along these lines is nearly as enjoyable as learning these things (if only I could be paid to learn, lol... sucks that it's the other way around). So I can't see myself as an engineer or a math teacher or a physicist or something, but what the hell else is there?</p>
<p>Well, there is English, right? Eh, wrong. They make absolutely no money (yes I'm shallow) and I really would love to write screenplays anyway--something I recently delved into--and this would be only a hobby. I just don't love anything enough to throw myself into it with the risks that being a writer (or something else say in the movie business) entails. And that's my problem, I don't really LOVE anything.</p>
<p>Everyone says you need to find your passion, well, I have none. I know I don't. At times I lean towards different things and I never really know. At one point I even wanted to architecture because I have a good spatial sense (?) and wanted to design a house. Yet, I realized I simply wanted to design and build MY house, I don't care to build for anyone else really--plus they, like other artists, don't get paid very well. </p>
<p>I feel almost as if I've run out of ideas... </p>
<p>If I really have what I wanted it'd be a job that I could make enough money to build a big house somewhere (say where land is cheap) where the scenery is beautiful and be able to have other luxuries I wanted (car, TV, video games, movies) and then travel and learn at my leisure. I love to learn, I'd love to go places (haven't really gone anyway in my life so far). But these things don't go hand in hand... unless of course you inherit lots of money, lol.</p>
<p>And a lot of people would probably share a similar dream, yet at least they have something else in mind first to maybe get them somewhere like this at some point in their lives. I don't though. I don't know what I want to do. So I continue to kill myself thinking about it all the time, every day I feel like I'm running out of time. I have 2 years left after this one is over and I need to know where I'm headed and what I want my undergrad degree to be in. Right now it's English and I wanna keep it that way, yet if I choose something else I wanna double major, even if I stay there longer because I don't want to sacrifice one thing for another, you know? I enjoy learning and want to be intelligent and know a lot. It's why I'm having a good time in school and trying to the best I can (hopefully will have a 4.0 at this CC). Yet, that only helps me keep options open, it doesn't help me find out what I want. That's where you guys come in!</p>
<p>I need help. I'm desperate. As you can tell from this incredibly lengthy post I have a lot on my mind and a lot to say about it (I really have a damn lot to say about everything actually). I just need some objective voices to help me with this and give me some advice on what to do next to figure things out so I can ease my mind a bit.</p>
<p>If anyone gets to this point I thank you for being so kind as to read all of this (I know it probably got boring, right? Hopefully I could entertain you a bit though) and if you could please just share with me something to help, I'd be forever grateful.</p>
<p>Thanks so much for anyone who reads this and helps me. I need all the help I can get.</p>
<p>*And sorry for any mistakes... this is pretty long and didn't bother going through to edit. I am pretty confident that it's coherent enough to make sense though.</p>