<p>By late April, I have to decide between the Naval Academy and Duke.</p>
<p>Now, I've thought long and hard, and every bone in my body is pulling me toward civilian life at Duke University. Deep in my bones I just feel like it's where I belong. But every time I think I'm finally 100% sure, I have to smack myself.</p>
<p>Here's my beef.</p>
<p>Unlike any of the Ivy league schools, or many other schools for that matter, Duke has created a sort of 'honors program' for 20 admitted students each year. This little clubbies are affectionately known as the "AB Duke Scholars" and they rub me the wrong way.</p>
<p>It's not the people. I can almost gaurantee the actual scholars are the nicest people you will every meet. I bet they are extraordinary in every respect.</p>
<p>But you know what? Crazy as it sounds, I like to think of myself as extraordinary as well.</p>
<p>Yet, in 20 years, only 1 Duke Rhodes scholar has been a non-AB vs. something like 20 who were. Nearly every Goldwater Scholar, Fulbright, Truman, and Gates-Cambridge scholar from Duke has also been an AB Duke Scholar.</p>
<p>Now, I have the Naval Academy. If I were to report, I'd be holding a nomination from the Senior Senator from the Largest State in the most competitive applicant pool to the Academy in the country. Yet, I would still be treated like dirt and have to earn my way.</p>
<p>I suppose my problem is this: I don't feel like I'm on equal ground with these AB Duke scholars, and I won't have a fair chance. I certainly won't have the automatic semester at Oxford, nor the faculty contacts, nor the special AB Duke scholar events to attend. And I will not attend a university that won't give me the tools I need to fulfill my entire potential.</p>
<p>I can't be the only one who's a little peeved about this. It's not jealousy, or "poor me". I could care about full tuition or a stupid title. But if I am at an actualy disadvantage to these scholars, I'm not going to attend Duke. I couldn't bear a retread of High School where I have to fight for every inch, and some others are guided through every hoop and obstacle, and invited for tea, and encouraged to apply for this, and for that, and become editor of every publication because of their status, and make the Honor Council because "we need to put our AB Duke scholars in the best position to succeed for the University."</p>
<p>I'd rather serve my country.</p>