<p>as i said before, i was hoping i could be providing encouragement, but indeed here i am, seeking solace. after not getting in again this year, my issue is sort of many-fold. </p>
<p>i've been here at the school i'm at for a year, and i'm not coming back. i've officially withdrawn for next semester, and i know it's not the place for me. it's hard to leave the people i've come to love, but i have to do it...i can't stay here.</p>
<p>but that leaves me with what i feel like is a black hole. i know there are probably a lot of things i'm overlooking, but i feel very....helpless at this point.</p>
<p>LIVING AT HOME: after a year of not living at home, i don't feel like i can go back. i have an excellent relationship with my mom, but my stepdad and i do not get along at all. he is very difficult to live with and we fight all the time. i hate it because i know that he makes my mom happy, but we have differences that will never be resolved. i feel that being home next year would be really detrimental to my growth as a person. which brings me to issue #2</p>
<p>I'M NOT 18 YET: i will turn 18 in the fall, but that rules out a lot of training options. most you have to be 18 when you apply/enter, and i wouldn't be until a little less than halfway through first semester...so that sort of rules me out of that one.</p>
<p>i'm definitely going to have to work over the summer because college has eaten away all of the little i had saved at the beginning of the year. i'll have to start re-paying my student loans 6 months after i leave here, so that'll be tough as well. </p>
<p>i guess i don't even really know HOW to start looking for what to do next year. if anyone has any suggestions of how to actively search for opportunities, if you could let me know either on the forum, through PMs or emails, i would appreciate it so much.</p>
<p>thanks, again. CCers have already sent me many hugs via PM, and every one means a lot to me :)</p>
<p>maggie</p>