I got caught cheating on a final math exam

I’m a freshman at my community college. Math has always been my weakest subject (I do well on my other subjects) and I knew that I was in danger of failing the course. It was the last day of class. But instead of taking the hit like a good student would, out of shear desperation and selfishness, I attempted to use a calculator on the test to help me out with the problems I was stuck on and then the unthinkable happened and I got caught. The teacher walked up to me and said “you’re done. What do you have in your hand?” I showed her my calculator in defeat and that was that. This was the first time I have ever cheated on a test and I have been beating myself up over it ever since and have gone into a little depression. I certainly am not going to even think about attempting that again. The experience of getting caught is bad enough, you have no idea. Since I failed the course, I am going to need to retake it. How do I get over this though? I can’t stop thinking about it and I still am in shock that it happened.

Sorry if I posted this in the wrong section I’m new to this website. My name reflects how I felt when I made the account.

You feel badly because you know that you did something bad. Fortunately, you didn’t hurt anyone except yourself. Try to remember this feeling and use it to fuel your studying and your academic integrity in the future. You will eventually move on from this, but only if you can forgive yourself and learn the lesson your guilty feelings are trying to teach you.

next time dont cheat