<p>Ever since I’ve been young, I’ve always seemed to have a mental block when dealing with mathematics. I began to believe I was bad at math when I couldn’t understand it as quickly as some other students. I’ve been afraid of math.</p>
<p>This snowballed into a huge problem in my mathematics education. This affected my performance throughout my later years. I scraped by in college admissions by having excellent scores in everything but math. </p>
<p>I always believed that my mediocre school system was the issue, as they generally do not have good education.That may be partly true, but now I realize that I just never worked hard enough. </p>
<p>I can do math sometimes, but it takes me very long. I panic if I’m given a timed test, like on the SAT or just normal classroom tests. My main obstacle is fear. I panicked while looking at a long division problem yesterday.</p>
<p>I want to end my issue with math and become fairly proficient at it, and I want to stop being scared of it which I believe affects my performance. I used to think “I’ll never understand/be good at this, so why try?” Now I realize that doesn’t have to be true.</p>
<p>I’m a freshman in college, and I want to do something about this. I don’t want to take math classes here yet because they would scare me instead of helping me, and I don’t want to spend too much money on tutoring.</p>
<p>Does anyone know of a summer math program, online or in real life, that could help me? </p>
<p>I want to have structure instead of teaching myself on Khan academy, because then I know I’ll just stop. Maybe a community college math course could help, but the community college near my home is a bit of a disaster and probably wouldn’t help me. </p>
<p>I just want something cheap and educational to help me repair the math section of my mind. An online class for which I had homework and problem sets, but no set time limit for when I had to finish the course, would probably be the best thing. That would work for either the semester or the summer. I also want to be able to make money during the summer, so it couldn’t be too strict on time. </p>
<p>Basically, does anyone have any ideas about how I can repair my math skills? I feel it’s necessary for my education and my mental health. Are there any math programs/remediation camps/ things for college students?</p>