Your ruminations are unclear, @NightRogue, and suggest you work on thought-stopping and redirecting rather than spinning them further into confusing cognitive. Don’t go down those rabbit holes. Are you hearing voices when you refer to narrators?
My best suggestion is to focus your energy elsewhere on something productive & a bit more tangible. This, in turn, may help you to understand more & to find answers to troubling issues.
Caring for others is a healthy way to approach life.
Have you ever read any Russian literature ? If not, then you may find some comfort there. Otherwise, you might want to ask suggestions from other posters about intellectual authors/books/reading material.
When I was young, I read a few psychology books available from major booksellers which offered soothing insights into issues about which I was troubled. Also, great books have a way of phrasing, framing & addressing issues that most could not do so for themselves even though struggling daily with those anxieties.
P.S. The answers are there, but maybe your looking in the wrong places to discover the answers that you need to progress.
No, not that. It’s something, a term in regards to the text.
I agree with many of the suggestions made previously, but I am a little concerned about your immediate well being. Are any adults aware of your current anxiety/energy.
Seems like you are extremely smart, so smart that your mind races to places and then tries to catch up spots that it blew past. Then again I don’t want t guess your thought process.
I do know that it would be a waste of energy and intelligence for you not tonshare what is going on with a parent, teacher, clergy or some adult. You obviously want to share and get help so rather than doing it anonymously reach out t someone is n person.
Please, would you be willing to share what’s going on with an adult even while you are traveling. It’s important.
Once you read thoughtful classics, you can more easily share your thoughts with others. Sometimes through a book club, a coffee club or a class that deals with famous literature.
We all recognize that you are intelligent & sensitive, but worry that you don’t have enough meaningful & rewarding contact with others. Shared experiences–such as volunteering & discussing classic works of literature–makes contact with others easy & meaningful.
Daily physical exercise makes you feel good about yourself & more likely to feel confident about interacting with others.
P.S. Although it sounds simple, a visit to a pet store or to an animal shelter can work wonders for one who is too internalized.
I’m just at the moment really angry with myself for letting my anxiety get the better of me. Two of my hobbies are writing/listening to music and because I’m anxious again, I’m super worried I won’t get back into them as I’ll be too anxious to enjoy them.
Thanks publisher.
You should not be angry with yourself. You seem to be a really nice person who is going through a period of growth & change–which is often uncomfortable. And that is why they are called growing pains.
@NightRogue, if I came and posted a similar thread, what advice would you give me? Being angry and disappointed with yourself isn’t great self-care. Be as graceful to yourself as you would be to someone else in the same situation. You’ve been in this place before and got to a better place successfully so pull out some of those tools and use them now.
I have girls with anxiety and they like this workbook:
https://www.amazon.com/Anxiety-Worry-Workbook-Cognitive-Behavioral/dp/160623918X/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&qid=1534729457&sr=8-3&keywords=the+anxiety+workbook
Treat the OCD. Seriously, between counseling and (occasional) medication, I have witnessed near-miracles.
If writing is you hobby, I suggest you try a different approach. I’m not a therapist or a spiritual leader so take my words with many grains of salt. However, it seems to me I partially understand where you’re coming from, as I used to have mild bouts of OCD now and then. So, try to stop researching and put everything you can say about this problem on paper, as clear as you can. Then step back, read the text as if you’re a stranger, and answer for yourself: does this all make sense? If not, rewrite more clearly until you’re satisfied or you figure out this is never going to make any sense. This just may get these thoughts out of your head and settled on paper. Oh, and intense exercise does wonders too.
So, it’s agreed I should put off this research until I graduate, correct?
This “research” does nothing but cause you discomfort and anxiety. Don’t put it off until you graduate. Put it off forever. It sounds like an existential question that is causing you nothing but angst.
I don’t have acess to one, I meant for now
I am a spiritual person, raised in the Christian church all my life. I believe the Bible, read it, and use its words to shape my life.
At the same time, I am baffled by some of the confusing theology. How can God be three persons of the Trinity? (Just one example). I could spiral into a constant state of confusion trying to humanly understand all the aspects of the Trinity.
Or, I can accept that it is true, even if I can not fully understand it or explain it with my finite brain.
Or I could choose to walk away from my faith, my church, and forget the Bible exists. This is Free Will (another biblical concept).
You get to choose what you believe and how you react based on your belief system. I think there is a need for Faith and Trust in any belief system.
I agree that you need professional help to guide you to a healthier way of daily life. Prescription Medication, daily exercise, volunteering to help pets, elderly people, or some cause that you believe is worthy, and reading some of the suggested books may help divert your obsession with your research.
Joy. Look for the joy in each day. Journal things each day you are grateful for. A hot shower, a beautiful sunrise, a great Parking spot, a smile from a stranger, music that touches your soul. Choosing to bring joy to others can be rewarding.
Have you reached out to someone in your Faith to ask for help in understanding this passage? To me, that makes more sense than ruminating on your own. Pastors, priests, theologians have studied texts and are trained to help others walk through difficult and confusing passages.
I’ve had enough. Can thread be deleted
They don’t delete threads. If your question is spiritual in nature, clergy is the best route for that part. Good luck.
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