<p>I have been horribly indecisive with my major for the last two-three years now. Excuse the hipster mentality here, but when I was in (and graduated) high school, I wanted to major in Physics because I felt like majoring in engineering was selling out. But I dropped the idea of Physics and changed it to music. Then back to Physics when I realized I probably would be drowning in student loan debt by the time I was done with music. Then to computer science. Then to math when I didn't know what else to do because I was poor and I didn't have any money. Then to physics. Then to engineering. Then to statistics. Then to math. Then to engineering. Then to math. Then to engineering. Then to undecided. Then to math. Then to engineering. All within the span of two years.</p>
<p>I've got my AS in mathematics because it was the associate's degree I was closest to finishing. I intended to transfer under statistics for this fall 2014 to Texas Tech University because they'd given me close to $10,000 in merit aid. But the idea of potentially going into student loan debt for a math degree made me a little unsettled. Back in June in my undecided rage, I switched to engineering and applied to a different school that would be cheaper. But I kept having that nagging, "What might've been?" feeling. So I kept the option of going to Texas Tech University open while I sorted out my options.</p>
<p>A month went by. And I caved in. I dropped the engineering degree plan and tried contacting Texas Tech University to see if my option there was still valid. It's been a week and I haven't heard anything. I'm wondering if the person I e-mailed is ignoring me. Now I'm having horrible regrets about dropping the engineering track because now I'm probably going to go into significant student loan debt for a math degree--something I could've done at the cheaper university here at home for significantly less money.</p>
<p>I've taken a couple of engineering classes and lots of math classes and I don't love either any more than the other. The reason I feel like taking the offer at Texas Tech is because it's a more well-known university that might open up more options and recruitment if I get the math degree from there. I can't imagine being a math teacher--I have some experience doing tutoring services, but I couldn't imagine doing it 40-50 hours a day. And deep down, I still hunger for what's known as the "college experience" even though I keep telling myself it's not worth it.</p>
<p>I've tried everything: talking to people at those schools to ask what it's like, I've tried taking a few classes in each field, I've tried flipping a coin, I've tried researching the fields, I've tried doing academic research in each field, I've tried talking to academic guidance counselors about this and they send me through this same loop. I've tried taking a year off to just do work to earn some money. I earned money, but I didn't stay the full year. I only worked full-time for maybe two or three months and just had the burning, undying desire to get back into school to get away from unskilled work. I've even tried talking to a few of my old high school teachers who all got math degrees from the cheaper university. They've each worked at my high school for quite a number of years and they all advised against going into math.</p>
<p>I need some help identifying my options. I have tried to do it myself, but I keep making bad choices. I keep getting the, "What in God's name made you think that was even a good idea?! You should NEVER do that!" spiel from friends and family when I make these tough decisions.</p>