<p>I am a second year intended MCB Neuro and I have wanted to go into medicine from as far back as middle school. </p>
<p>God, sometimes this school is too much for me. I realized today that I am one of those students who does absolutely nothing but study 24/7...and yet I still manage to barely pull off a 3.0. Not having any other aspects to my life is starting to take its toll on me and makes me feel like learning and studying gets more an more unbearable with each day and I feel I may be starting to develop depression of some sort. </p>
<p>I don't even know if I should consider applying to med school anymore. If I had known as a senior in HS that going to an easier school would mean a better GPA and a palpable shot at med school, I would have gone elsewhere because that was my dream in life-and still is if I know I'm not working towards a dead end. Even now, if someone were to tell me that all hope is not lost because of my atrocious GPA and that I have a chance at ANY med school (it doesn't have to be a Top 25 or anything like that), I would suck it up and take any beatings this school offers me by just keeping my final goal in mind.</p>
<p>Now I understand there are others who are also in a similar predicament, grades-wise, but I feel that they probably lead more balanced lives (meaning have SOME semblance of social class, time to exercise, eat well etc) and that their grades reflect their efforts (those who study hard get good grades and those who don't study get poor ones). </p>
<p>The fact with me is that I do NOTHING but go to classes, come back home study, participate in VERY few outside activities and still manage to consecutively bomb midterms for classes like Physics 8A and Bio 1A. And I look around me and I see others who have all these great relationships, Cal memories they are building, involved with research, activities they are passionate about and still do decent in classes. I know I came out of high school thinking I would be having the time of my life here at Berkeley and I feel like I wasted so much money too-since I could have just gone to a CC for two years and then transferred since I didn't really experience the "college experience" for these first two years aside from academics. I could even have gone to CSU Chico, partied, pulled of a 4.0 and still applied scott-free my senior year to med schools :(</p>
<p><em>Sigh</em> if I transfer at this point to somewhere like Davis for my last two years, will I be able to pull of a better GPA and still keep with my plans of going to med school? </p>
<p>Wow-this is long. Guess I had a lot to get off my chest. Oh and a disclaimer: this is in no means any way to deter any impressionable frosh admits from coming to Cal. </p>
<p>This is just my personal account of being an unbelievably frustrated premed at this great school.</p>