<p>Consider taking a “medical leave” right now. You really need to get yourself some help. There are lots of free resources in your town and it’s imperative you seek that out. You could try to push back your start date in college while you are in therapy. It sounds very, very serious, so please don’t put this off. My guess is that you’re trying not to be an additional burden to your family, but you really need to be open and honest with them. As a parent, I would like to hear the worst and then work from that point. Please get help! College can wait…once you’re there, they have a wonderful disability services department there and will work with you IF you let them. Good luck.</p>