<p>I think that you have to address your ability to cope with all of the stresses you are facing. Choosing a school is almost irrelevant unitl you feel that you are in control.</p>
<p>I agree that you should seek help today. Any larger hospital emergency room would have the faciility to give you a good evaluation and put you in touch with the right people.</p>
<p>If you have strong thoughts of harm to yourself or others then you should call 911 or get a ride to an emergency room right away.</p>
<p>you owe it to yourself to feel good as a starting point for all your other decisions.</p>