<p>When I began high-school, I had pictured myself being on the way to a career in medicine. I wanted to be a doctor, though I could just as easily have seen myself practicing law. I guess either field interests me, but I have a definite desire to get in to healthcare whereas the legal profession has been more of a fleeting thought. I just feel like I wouldn't have the same passion for it as being an MD. Anyway, without being conceited, I had always been a sort of gifted student -- I don't know that I'm exceptionally bright so much as just have an excellent memory. Just listening in class or reading through once had always been enough for me to retain the information. </p>
<p>Unfortuanetly, and I regret it everyday, I lost sight of my goals. I got my priorities all messed up and got involved with the wrong sort of crowd. Pretty soon, school took second place to partying, and I eventually got mixed up pretty deep in drugs. I guess I stopped caring about anything, and started missing class. When I did go to school, I usually slept through it. Though I still did well on tests, I had gotten so behind on homework and attendence points that my grades slipped to nothing, and I dropped out. </p>
<p>After a lot of soul searching, I woke up and realized how stupid I had been and that I was ****ing away my future hanging out with a bunch of losers. I wasn't doing anybody any good, least of all myself by taking the fast-lane to life as a town rat. I took the GED, and although it isn't exactly an achievement of prestige, I missed just two questions on the entire test and got the highest score in the region. I was awarded a full-ride scholarship to a local community college. Yeah-- I know -- fantastic. I scored a 28 on the ACT, though I feel like I could have done much better (I felt terrible on test day, I was sick and just felt groggy/tired)</p>
<p>I guess I just wonder how much weight is put on high-school performance in med-school admission. I get depressed thinking about how I may have had a chance at the IVY leagues, but wasted it away being an idiot and doing what felt good at the time. What gets me more depressed is that I wonder if I'll be able to get accepted in to any sort of respectable med-school -- Ivy leagues aside. </p>
<p>I'm doing well in community college, I've got a 3.8 GPA and am studying engineering in a 2+2 transfer program to SIUC. I've got a real knack for math and physics, but I'm weird and find them interesting. Everybody tells me that it's never to late to pursue your dreams, but at 21 I just feel like I've dug myself in too big of a hole. I mean, if I was in charge of admissions and was looking at a 24 year old (I'll be 24 by the time I get my B.S.) the GED is going to be a major turn-off regardless of GPA and ACT/SAT scores.</p>