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<p>I think its fine to thrive on competition to excel, but in my own experiences competition alone will lead to disappointment. Especially where you are so used to being the best at everything, you are suddenly put in this environment where you can’t even catch up. This is just my 2 cents from past experience, but I used to be motivated by competition, to me it was being the top, greatest, and beating others. It probably isn’t the same for others, but that was what pushed me to get good grades and be the best at sports etc… I’ve realized that for me personally, I would have benefited from pushing myself with the motivation to learn and be successful, not the need to be the best and beat others. It’s good to be competitive, but most competitive people can’t handle being second best and some crack at the pressure. @jersey13, you obviously take a different approach to competition and I admire your strength. I’m sure that if you attend a top school, it will help you succeed since you are willing to just be your best and not always the best</p>
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Right… I’m not sure how wanting to challenge myself equates to being elitist and lacking humility and I’m definitely confused as to how you can conclude I’m destined for failure from me saying that I am fine with people being better than me and that I like to compete. I’m sure that your reasoning sounded coherent in the midst of your misplaced vehemence, but even you should see how dumb your comment is in retrospect.</p>
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<p>this is cray.</p>
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<p>You’re right, it is…cray? But there are couple other people you probably know who are/were on here. Romanigypsyeyes, for example.</p>
<p>^^^ Jersey, don’t worry, he just felt like trollin’.</p>
<p>^ I have no idea what just happened lol.</p>
<p>^I think they found out that they both knew each other.</p>
<p>I think the troller used my words to try to cope ideas. Lol.</p>
<p>The OP sounds exactly like me. I will come home everyday to look up colleges and my first choice and plan out my life. I have been told multiple times that it is unhealthy but ever since I was a little kid( I think it is this way for most people) my parents have always wanted me to become either a doctor or lawyer. They did say that I should do what I wanted but strongly encouraged one of those two careers. I have decided based on past experiences and my way of dealing with life that I would like to become a psychiatrist( i have not been influenced by my parents in this aspect) They both work two jobs and tell me constantly not to be like them, struggling. So I plan out my life every step of the way when it comes to academics. I constantly stress over grades and my GPA and extracurriculars. Thinking of ways to stand out. competitions to enter, how to become smarter, etc.
The worst part is, is that I enjoy doing all of these things(except for the stressing out part) and it takes up a majority of my time. Every time I have a free period at school, when I am not eating I will go to the library and read college admissions books. i am only a sophomore in high school and I have 3 SAT Prep Books, one ACT Prep Book, and one SAT Subject Test Prep book. I also constantly down myself by comparing my grades to those of my friends who are very intelligent. I always feel like I will never be enough for my top choice school (Emory University) and am worried about AP’s classes- rigor of course load, etc.I began planning my schedule for junior year in October of my sophomore year (current)
I can’t deal with all of this anxiety anymore, and I am sure that I am not the only person on CC who feels this way, because there are a good number of sophomores and freshman in high school on here who, like me, are constantly posting new threads on the “What Are My Chances?” Forum.</p>
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<p>Sorry for the rant. I just needed to get it off my chest to people, who may or may not be in the same situation as I am, compared to my friends and the people in my school who have absolutely no idea what they want to do in college, nevertheless in life. Nor do they care.</p>