I know none of you know me personally, and I know that what I’m about to say is going to sound untrue, but I’ll say it anyway:
I am the type of person who likes to have a plan. Especially financially. I will only commit to something that I know will be a good choice. I am also a realistic thinker. I an a very logical thinker. I only do things if they make sense.
And although it is tough for me to acknowledge, I don’t think going to FSU makes sense for me. At least that’s how I am feeling right now at this time.
Even though I do not know you all personally, I’m still going to be truthful. I went wayyyyyy too fast in making this college decision. I applied to 6 schools, only got accepted to 2 of them, and chosee FSU. I’ll bemail honest: I had no idea about financial aid. My guidance counselor did nothe help me at all in the college application process. My school didn’t even send the correct transcripts to my prospective colleges; so I stressed out from January-April 1st to handle all of that. Everyone told me “You’ll be fine. If you stay in Florida you can get all your school payed for”.
I didn’t believe them so I kept looking (and am still looking) for scholarships. But all I can find are the stupid ones where you sign up to make an account on a scholarship website and then are “automatically entered” to win $1,000/$5,000/$10,000 in scholarships. Bologna! I never got any of those scholarships. But that doesn’t mean I will stop looking for and applying for more. I’ll keep looking and applying.
I underestimated my college costs. Drastically. Yes, I knew college would cost money, but I didn’t know that it would cost this much money, especially me being an in-state student.
I am a very driven snd determined person. If i have to wofk two/three jobs to pay for college I will. I will do whatever I have to do to avoid taking out loans and borrowing money from sources in amounts that I cannot come up with to pay.
The other issue that I have with going to my college and taking out loans to do it is that I am not entirely sure I want to study engineeting. I am also interested in biology or medical sciences. I don’t want go to college on loans if I’m not sure what I want to study and focus my time and money that’s not mine on.
That’s why I’m now considering a gap year. I can work and find some way to earn career exposures in a field I am interested in to see if it is right for me and if I sure I want to spend 4years plus graduate school pursuing it.