<p>I am currently a third year at Georgia Tech studying Biochemistry. Previously I studying Biomedical Engineering but because I didnt like the classes I changed to Biochemistry since from the end of high school I knew I wanted to do something with Chemistry in college. So now the main problem is
my GPA. I currently stand at a 3.08 GPA and I am involved in undergraduate research as well as several extracurricular activities. I really try hard to do my best each and every day but there are many things that get in the way
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1. First of all, there is my self-confidence. My confidence goes up and down several times a day almost like my mood swings and these two are mostly affected by my GPA. Whenever I think of my GPA, I say to myself, I cant believe my GPA is so apathetically low. I suck at everything. I really am horrible.
2. Second: All my friends [at GaTech] are in their last year and are more or less doing well and have great things they would like to pursue. Most of them have GPAs above 3.5+ and want to attend graduate school at places like Stanford, Berkeley Cornell. I really do appreciate them, but most of the time when I think of them, I end up comparing myself to them and feel extremely depressed. Then I just cry and end up loosing all my energy. This has happened after every exam.
3. I think way too much of the past and future and I cant concentrate on the present. I keep thinking that if I could go back three years, I would have close to a 4.0+ right now and my study habits would be different. I would manage my time better and be independent and be able to handle things on my own.
I get depressed and am very anxious, and thus have panic/depression attacks very often. I then tell myself that in ten years all my friends will be successful except me and I will end up with a job that I dont like and that will not pay enough. I am not a money person; I want to do something for myself that I enjoy. But it seems to me as if I cant ever figure it out.
Next week is finals week and the way my grades are standing right now, I am bound to get all Cs and if I get too anxious and scared I might get all Ds. My GPA is definitely going to drop to below a 3.00. I am sorry for posting this confusing paradoxical post but I really need help and Ive been trying so hard to help myself but it never works out. I worry over every little thing and I want everything in my life to be perfect! Like sometimes I feel as if I spend more time keeping my room clean than studying. For the future, if it goes the way Id hope it to go, I would like to obtain a Masters in Public Health and then a Dr. in Public Health. Although I havent had much experience with Public Health it seems like a career that would fit me. I am hoping to specialize in epidemiology but with all these problems and issues I dont know how I am even going to get through college with a decent GPA. I sometimes wake up in the morning and cry over what is going on and I wish that I could have someone tell me what is the right thing to do every moment of the day so that I wouldnt have regrets and go in the right path. Please help. I also dont have a Facebook because when I did I would end up looking at my friends profile pages and pictures and end up endlessly comparing myself to them reducing me to tears and lowering my self esteem completely.</p>
<p>@gttrap, Please go see Georgia Tech’s counseling center [Georgia</a> Institute of Technology :: Counseling Center](<a href=“http://www.counseling.gatech.edu/plugins/content/index.php?id=231]Georgia”>http://www.counseling.gatech.edu/plugins/content/index.php?id=231) as soon as possible. Your issues are unlikely to be resolved on a forum such as this one. I can tell you your GPA is not a showstopper by any means for your future. So please go talk to someone at the counseling center to reaffirm this for you, and put you in touch with the resources you need. Good luck!</p>
<p>Any other advice?</p>
<p>Post this somewhere other than the National Merit forum…</p>