I need help. Lol, like I need serious help.
Long story short, to every teacher, faculty, staff and student or basically person, I’m identified as “well rounded”, “overachiever”, “talented” “smart”, etc. But to be completely honest with you, I don’t feel that way. I study in order to pass and I set hiiiigggh standards for myself (A’s only. (95+ for regular classes, 90+ for AP classes). This year is my first year (2014-2015, I’m a sophomore) taking AP classes. As you can see by the title, I really want to be valedictorian, but I am sooo terrified that it won’t happen. I didn’t take APHUG my freshman year of high school because I was scared that it would mess up my GPA and rank. I took all regular classes and I had all A’s throughout the whole year with a 4.0 GPA, but my rank was 15 because I didn’t take AP classes. Saddened I took BOTH APHUG with WHAP (I know, bad decision) this year. It was hell but I’m alive. The only B’s I have are from WHAP and my overall GPA is a 4.25.
My problem is that, some of the people with higher GPAs and ranks that I are at that higher position because they cheat or they’ve taken easy dual credit courses which raise your GPA. My school counselors told me that GPA will fluctuate during my high school career, but my rank is set and won’t change by the end of my junior year. That means I have to take all the AP classes that I can handle, plus dual credit courses and probably some CBE tests. I’m scared that one screw up will mess up my chances of being valedictorian.
I’m sick of the people with higher ranks than me who do literally nothing to get them. I work extremely hard. I haven’t slept correctly since the beginning of the year. All they do is cheat and ask for answers and because they’re popular or nice, they get them. They have A’s in really hard classes because they ask other people to do their work for them. They want to be valedictorian as much as much as I do but they’re taking the easy road and it’s not fair.
I’m taking 5 AP’s next year. It will be a little bit easier because I’m going to study a little bit this coming summer so I won’t be lost or confused during the school year. I’m also taking 2, half credit, dual credit courses this summer. I was rank 13 before my school took it down to reupdate it. I don’t know what my rank will be, but I know for sure that it will be higher.
I’m not a kiss up. I’m not a teacher’s pet. I don’t like to brag. I want people to see that I achieve all of my goals because I work hard, not because I cheat or because my teachers like me. I’m a sophomore and I’m so stressed out. I’m sophomore student council president, I’m in the girls’ soccer team, I WAS in Advanced Research (I couldn’t go to the lab every saturday) and my teachers expect sooo much from me. It’s hard. I don’t know what to do. Time management isn’t even an option. You’d be suprised. 3 am to 6 am is not enough time to finish work lol.
Any advice would help. And chances of me getting into college based on you guys’ predictions would be appreciated. Sorry for the novel lol.