<p>I have to be honest with myself.</p>
<p>I want to go to med school.</p>
<p>I want to be a psychiatrist.</p>
<p>I have never openly admitted this, only because I don't believe that I CAN do it.</p>
<p>Don't get me wrong, I'm intelligent enough, but I'm definitely more right-brained than left; I've always enjoyed English and the arts more than math and science. </p>
<p>I am currently enrolled in a BA program for psychology (just finished my first year), and while I would be happy as a psychologist, I want to be a psychiatrist. I am sure of it. I am 100% sure. I've tried to convince myself otherwise, but it is what it is. </p>
<p>That being said, I am at a loss as to how to pursue this. I am so afraid of failure, and I don't want to completely mess something up and be stuck with hundreds of thousands of dollars in student loans when I didn't even complete the program. I'll be left with no degree, no career, and in a huge amount of debt. </p>
<p>My school does offer a pre-med program, but I am honestly skeptical as to whether or not it is something that I can actually succeed at. Like I said, I'm not unintelligent, but I attended high school abroad and did not take any science in HS whatsoever. College-level science is therefore VERY hard for me. I do have to take a minimum amount of biology for psychology, and that's fine, but I'm doubtful about delving into it at a more intense level.</p>
<p>I have always been a true believer in the saying that if you believe it, you can achieve it. This is the first time in my life that I've doubted my ability to actually achieve my goal. I am willing to work VERY hard, and I am extremely determined, but I am at a loss. I am enrolled in a state school that is 100% average on every spectrum, and cannot transfer anywhere else without a very hefty scholarship (which my chances of receiving are slim to none). Our advising program is horrible, so there's really no one I can turn to at college to help me out here. If I'm going to do something, I'm going to have to figure it out for myself.</p>
<p>I need advice, please. I don't want to fail and end up with a ruined life, but I don't want to look back 30 years from now and wish I had pursued my dream...</p>