<p>... that many here actually do believe that they will not get into college.</p>
<p>I won't lie, as I had that same exact fear of not getting into a school of my choice/liking. It was always on my mind.</p>
<p>You guys are clearly intelligent, with nice stats and strong hopes for the future. There were students who clearly shouldn't have been at my school (UCLA), but were somehow in class, really unmotivated, and not eager and passionate about their future.</p>
<p>I would've definitely like to see all of you guys there instead ...</p>
<p>-open ocean
-my brother when he's angry(he has terrible tantrums)
-only getting into my safety schools(because I dont love them)
-not being genuinely like by my friends
-being stabbed with anything
-cutting skin(like in an operation)
-doing something horrible to someone else, even if i hate them
-running out of fresh fruits/veggies/vegetable dip</p>
<ul>
<li>Screwing up my life</li>
<li>Florida Virtual School</li>
<li>Driving in heavy rainstorm while the ass hole in front of me doesn't turn on his lights so I can't see him even when he's 5 feet in front of my bumper</li>
<li>My library dues</li>
<li>Getting in trouble when I least expect it</li>
</ul>
<p>thunderstorms! ..like today i had a near panic attack while i was driving through one and the telephone pole, like 30 feet from me got struck by lightning.</p>
<p>-Fear of barking dogs. (I can cuddle with big dogs if they don't bark, but I'll run away from even the smallest Chihuahua (sp?) if they bark at me.)
-Car crashing.
-Owing too much money after graduation from college.
-Not finding the 'right' career'.
-Not getting to do all the amazing, wonderful things that I fantasized about doing once I got to college.
-My acne might get worse :(
-Not being 'successful'</p>
<ul>
<li>Death with pain</li>
<li>somehow ****ing up and ruining my life (getting arrested or soemthing)</li>
<li>getting bankrupt</li>
<li>making less than $100,000 a year by the time i'm 30 (in 2008 dollars)</li>
<li>going to a community college</li>
</ul>
<p>-Failure in general. It sucks.
-Being second best. This one sucks because there will always be someone better than me.
-Getting rejected from every single boarding school I apply to -or-
-Getting accepted into every boarding school I apply to except Exeter (where I'd be guaranteed a full ride b/c of parent's salaries) and don't get a BIT of financial aid.
-Going to BS and not making friends. But that's unrealistic, cause i'm supah friendly!!
Haha.
Thats about it at the moment. I have many deep rooted phobias, but most of my fears right now are school-related.</p>
<p>-driving on a bridge over a HUGE river/ocean
-driving between two cargo trucks X[
-driving on a tall overhead highway ramp
-falling off of extremely tall buildings
-cockroaches crawling all over me when i sleep on the floor.
-all my songs getting deleted on itunes.
and since we are on CC..
-not accepted into any colleges or not have enough money to go to college.</p>
<p>I fear driving in a huge rainstorm where visibility is impossible and the guy in front of me doesn't bother to turn on the headlights so I can see the red lights in the back. I was going 20 mph because I thought I was going to rear end him any second.</p>
<p>And I was in a 4 cylinder Saturn during that huge rainstorm.</p>
<p>Death
Someone in my family dying or getting seriously injured or getting a life threatening disease (by the way, all three have happened in the past year)
My dad and brother having another fight and not making up
Growing up
Basically anything else I don't have control over
My panic/generalized anxiety disorder getting worse
Getting into another car accident and not making it out without hurting myself/one of my passengers/someone in another car
Not getting into UMich (even though I have other colleges I really want to go to, everyone expects me to get in there)
Not getting in anywhere at all
Not being successful
Not getting a fine art on my course schedule this year (need it to graduate)
Not getting into NHS, and having to tell my friends I didn't make it when they did. Again.
Spiders, bees, ants, etc
Bridges
And a bunch of other things</p>
<p>-heights
-being alone, in a silent living room, in the dark
-sleeping in a basement
-be buried alive
-insects
-to have spiders crawling all over me in my sleep
- a psycho entering my house (I live near the prison and I read that scary story when I was young... scarred me for life)
- having an exotic disease we can't cure yet</p>