What do I do...

I’m looking at these common app prompts and I just feel so lost. I’ve spent the last few days self-reflecting and I realized how pathetic I am.

I try to think of something that’s important to me, I can’t remember anything. I think about one of my traits that define me so I can start from there and all I can think about is how incompetent I am: i’m lazy, irresponsible, unmotivated; I never follow one thing for a long time, always switch from one “interest” for a few months to a new one later.

I was looking at some past CC posts, and one person mentioned taking a few minutes to write down any ideas that come to mind for topics: my paper stayed blank and my pencil did

I ask myself why any college would want someone like me on a campus, let alone the selective, t20 colleges I was thinking of applying to. I feel like a failure who doesn’t deserve to apply to these selective colleges. Yeah my grades are high, I’ve done nice science-y stuff, and won some awards like a ton of other asians, but inside I’m a complete loser who only does things because other people have done it, and doesn’t like anything.

I’m not quite sure where to go.

EDIT: This is actually in the wrong subforum, can someone remove it.

I just responded to your other thread on the same topic.