<p>Hello all,</p>
<p>I don't know how to start my story. I am in desperate need of an advice, guidance and insight into something I might be missing. So I'm a college dropout. I am 28 years old. I was once a most likely to succeed in high school turned into a loser of all time :( I got accepted to Yale straight out of high school with nearly perfect GPA (who doesn't have perfect GPA from high school, right? ). Following the crowd & somewhat harshly advised by my parents, I've decided that I will be a doctor. It didn't seem like a big deal, until I was hit hard with first year science. Gen chem. I never knew I could suck so much at science like this. I was okay with science back in high school, but oh man it was different. Well I barely passed the class with a C. Then o-chem & bio came along. I failed first half of O-chem twice. Passed Bio with barely C+. I was devastated. Anyways, stuck in the awe of despair and shock, I decided to withdraw from school on my third year after having declared my major. I couldn't keep going. Was sick of all the science stuff which never made any sense to me at the time or till today and I just didn't know what to do. Now that's about 6 or 7 years ago when I withdrew from school. Since then, I have been working part-time as an SAT instructor for couple years and also did an internship at a local medical center near my home in California.</p>
<p>Now I'm working full-time at some random company where I don't even know what the hell I'm doing. I'm treated like **** and I know for sure that this is not what I want to do for the rest of my life. Now or later I'll have to make up my mind whether to finish my degree at Yale or get a degree at some local school near my home. This is what is really leaving me confused and vexed. I mean, I know for sure that my every cell hates science since there was not a single science class that got my interest and I know I'm unbelievably dumb at science. But I'm good at math. Not a genius status, but have been pretty good with numbers since very young. So I was thinking maybe I should become an accountant? Because it has something to do with numbers...? So I was thinking I should go to a local school and major in accounting and hopefully become a CPA. This seems like a achievable goal for me and something that at least interests me. However, I still feel like I should get a degree at Yale because a degree at Yale might mean something big? I don't know. But every time I think of going back to Yale to finish my degree with Bio major just makes me wanna kill myself. I know I will struggle just like before, and there is a high chance I might get kicked out if I continue to fail courses. Upper div courses is way harder than the lower div.. At least I realized it when I tried to take bio-chem, which really made me question my capability of doing bio as my major.</p>
<p>Anyway, what are your thoughts on this? I don't want to go back to Yale. The only reason that compels me to go back is the prestige of having a degree from Yale. I'm just worried if I had gone to some random school, people might think less of me. People might ignore me.. I know that people always tell you you shouldn't care about what other people think about you but still.. I don't wanna be looked as an unintelligent loser who went to some unnamed school.. :( But at the same time I really want to start with something that is non-science that I can be good at and I can find interest in. I want to study something that I actually could truly enjoy learning. So I am more leaning towards going to a local school and graduating with accounting degree, but I am not sure. This path might be not for me either. I just want to know if there could be something I'm missing. I just want to listen to your insight that I couldn't have thought of. I guess I'm just very insecure at the moment, so I'm being very indecisive. Can you guys please help? :(</p>