<p>Wow, I had no idea how to title this thread. Hopefully that fits. </p>
<p>I tried to make this short...but I'm a bit verbose. </p>
<p>I wanted to be premed for a very long time. But I see life as a series of tradeoffs and there were some things about becoming a doctor that I wasn't sure about that I felt were balanaced and overruled by other things I'm not going to go into---but then realized halfway through 2nd semester this year that the path to becoming one is much more of an uphill battle than I anticipated and the balance tipped heavily out of its favor and I gave it up. </p>
<p>This semester I signed up for Oragnic Chemistry, Cell&Molecular Bio, Statistics, and an English class. With the exception of my english class, I discovered that I found my classes absolutely boring. Not in a "it's easy", but in a "this doesn't interest me" sort of way and it was frustrating. I found that I was studying for a grade, not because I actually found the knowledge interesting, as I had done in high school, which was frustrating because I chose my university because of its open curriculum. Though I had done well in the small pond that was my high school, I couldn't keep up with my classmates in biology or organic chemistry. While I was used to riding out the curve in high school, I found that despite the effort I was putting in, I was coming out at the bottom of the pack in these two classes. To make matters worse, I had a really bad virus and was really badly sick at one point during the semester, living in health services and put on bed rest for over a week, and I fell horrbly behind and never really managed to catch up. </p>
<p>I dropped biology once I recovered healthwise because I realized I couldn't handle the workload at that point and wanted to redirect my efforts towards organic chemistry. The problem is that despite all my efforts in organic chemistry...I might very well fail the class this semester. I got 6% on our last exam(the class average was a 40%, std dev of 19) and I have a final to go. This brings me down to a total of 2 classes this semester and I must say that I am demoralized. I got 2 A's and 2 B's last semester(almost 3 A's...but I made a dumb mistake regarding one class)...so to compare this to this semester(1 A, 1 pass--it's a forced pass/fail class, doesn't give grades, and two drops) is tough. </p>
<p>I came from a good high school that frequently sends its top students onto competitive colleges where they do well. So it's not as if I'm "behind" there. I'm not one of the kids that got in with weaker academic qualifications for other reasons--it was mentioned in my admissions letter that my academic performance in high school was a big part of my admission. While I didn't live in the library, it's not as if I partied my way through the semester, either.</p>
<p>Even in high school, I was always significantly stronger in other subjects, but since high school hard science isn't that difficult I ignored my comparative weakness in it, but now that I'm in college, I find that I can't cut it.</p>
<p>My parents are incredibly upset/worried that I have basically changed course and left premed and the sciences for areas that won't guarantee me a good job out of college and that I don't necessarily have a "game plan" for life anymore.</p>
<p>I kind of prefer the fact that I don't have a "plan" anymore because now I don't feel constricted, but due to the high cost of my education, my parents are very unhappy that I've become one of those "wandering hippie" children. But part of me is optimistic that it'll turn out alright in the end. I have employable skills---I'm good at writing, good at speaking, and have been told by many people, including teachers, that I have good people skills. I keep reminding myself that compared to the rest of the population, I'm still smart. </p>
<p>My current plan(which my parents kind of detest) is to start taking courses in anthropology and cognitive science, where I actually have genuine interest(I'm willing to read those coursebooks for fun). I figure that my grades will be a lot better if I actually like the things I'm learning about. I realize that job prospects for anthro and/or cog sci majors aren't the best college, but somehow I have faith that with my skills I'll be able to figure something out. </p>
<p>MY QUESTION IS:
Is that overly optimistic? My dad is upset that I've "given up" and wants me to "toughen up" and "tough it out" back in the sciences(though not necessarily premed) and my mom wants me to do computer science(which I'm not interested in) or law(which I might do, but don't want to commit to yet.) I just turned 18 recently. I don't feel as if I should have to have an absolute plan set just yet and think I might figure it out sometime in the next 3 years(or...after graduation even...), but I'm feeling extremely pressured and extremely stressed and honestly just really upset(I'm definetly not happy about my fail...)</p>
<p>Sorry if I wrote too much...I just wanted to be clear. Thanks.</p>