<p>So, this is it. I leave for college next week, and 9 days is all I have to reconcile with a friend I lost this summer. I feel really bad that this thing ended the way it did, but I've faced the consequences of my actions and tried my best to let go. All I want at this point is to have a moment to say a proper good-bye before we separate. Also, if this is a good chance to say it, I really don't mean the hurtful things I said (perhaps I will be the loner all my life, not you). As you know, you had every right to say "f*** you." Only you could make such simple and generic words meaningful, though by the quiver in your voice, I could tell I had gone too far. I believe that I "see" you, in the fullest(?) way that a person can understand another human being. I knew about your greatest fear and used it to hurt you in your most vulnerable spot. I succeeded, because beneath the front that you put up, I knew you were hurt. But please understand, I did it only because I loved you. So please, let's settle this, because I don't want to look back at this moment decades from now and regret that I didn't take the chance to make things right.</p>
<p>I'm confused. Are you looking for responses to this, or are you just indulging in histrionics by publishing your personal wailings all over the Internet.</p>
<p>Very... interesting. (?)</p>
<p>:D</p>
<p>It takes a courageous, modest, and understanding person to admit his/her mistakes. I laud you for that. :)
I hope everything goes well with your situation.</p>
<p>also confused.....</p>
<p>very confusing...
possibly the friend is on this site?
or you're planning what to say?
or you're doing the easy way of apoligizing, by knowing your friend will never see it?
hmm....
some explanation here?</p>
<p>^I'd say either one or three from above.^ </p>
<p>it's nicely written</p>
<p>yeah, it is really well written...</p>
<p>It's written excellently. Is it some kind of poem? :p Enlighten me :)</p>
<p>I'm sure she's apologizing to someone on this site. But a well written poem like that would be much better in person.</p>
<p>Mabye she just needs to show what she feels here first, and them , mabye she will talk to her friend. I agree it is a lovely apology, and i know i would be terribly hounoured if i was on the recieving end.
All the best with the friendship and college.</p>
<p>why doesn't she come back and explain! I would really like to know what this is about!</p>
<p>Am I really that poetic, guys? It was only meant to be an emo spiel addressed to an ex. I'm a guy, btw, and yes my "friend" (little do you guys know) is on this forum. Yea, I'm sorry I'm too emo for your liking, but this is me...and I only have 7 days.</p>
<p>I'm hurting more than words can say.</p>
<p>no we all liked it! it was just so... mysterious. lol, I actually really enjoyed reading it!</p>
<p>^ i agree with vegan.</p>
<p>By the way, your screen name may say that you are not a girl but, given the fact that it's a song sung by Britney spears, it's hard to assume that you really are not a girl (i thought you were a girl apologizing to your very best friend)...guess i was wrong lol</p>
<p>Nah, I'm a guy. You can check me if you want. I'm cool with that haha. I just like making fun of Britney Spears and messing with people's minds (reverse psychology or simple truth??).</p>
<p>okay..I just thought it was wierd, that's all.</p>
<p>PS: I used to like Britney Spears songs, but all her new ones are ****.</p>
<p>I actually just started saying "she" becuase that's what the other people were saying.lol, I really didn't pay that much attention to your name....</p>
<p>as one who is also confused, if your spiel was a kind of sample of your apology, mending fences, etc. it was not really that,...it had in it veiled insults and and little admiting of error...
if you really are sorry, you need to be more clear and less flowery, which is a way of not really saying mea culpa</p>
<p>Something along the lines: I messed up, you are a great guy, I don't want to rehash stuff cause I get all emo, but I am so sorry I hurt you and our friendship,. I was not thinking and I can see why you are )($#@$ at me...</p>
<p>"But please understand, I did it only because I loved you."</p>
<p>If your friend was doing something dangerous, ie drugs, stealing, a really bad relationship, cheating, quitting school, or something like that, and you called the on it, there is no need to apologize, maybe your style was not the best, but if you lose a friend who is doing really bad stuff, and they get mad at you for trying to stop them, you have lost nothing</p>
<p>But, if on the other hand, you jsut didn't like what they were doing, and what they were doing was a matter of "taste" or "style" and didn't cross the line of safety, well, perhaps you owe an apoology</p>
<p>But you have to think about this...if it was either, what kind of friendship was it...</p>
<p>Say, your friend ditched you to hang out with someone else, or lied to you about something big, or somethng along those lines...if you got angry and THEY didn't apologize or admit, opps, me bad...that was not a great friendship anyway</p>