Dear ______,
I am writing to appeal my academic dismissal from the University -------. During Spring 2017 I was told that because of my Winter 2018 grades I was put directly on Subject to Dismissal. Because of this in order to be clear of dismissal/ probation I needed to be clear 3 quarters. I had cleared my subject to dismissal by that spring but unfortunately Winter 2018 I ended up with a 1.9 GPA which put me back onto Subject to Dismissal and that meant that if I didn’t get the required 2.0 for Spring 2018 then I would be dismissed, I ended up with a 1.8 the next quarter. Although I slightly improved from when I was put on Subject to Dismissal and I passed my classes with passing grades, those passing grades were not enough to get the GPA I was required to. When I got my dismissal letter I wasn’t surprised as I had already been aware of the grades I might get, but I was rather disappointed and ashamed that I couldn’t achieve a 2.0. I’m writing to you in hope that you would reinstate me for the following school year.
Firstly, I blame myself for getting such a low GPA. I also admit that I could’ve prevented myself from being in this situation if I just did what I needed to do from the get go instead of waiting last until the quarter was almost done to get help. Growing up I have always been shy and struggled in social situations. As I began high school my shyness developed into anxiety and as I went into college my anxiety became severe with many symptoms not only mentally but physically. Going to class became a burden and even though I would show up to lecture my focus was not on the lectures but rather on figuring out how I could control symptoms of my anxiety like shaking, breathing, heart palpitations and even stomach aches/nausea. As classes became bigger I felt as though I was becoming smaller and my symptoms seemed as if they were becoming noticeable by others. I would go to office hours only to stop right outside the door and overthink (on how dumb a question I would ask would be or how I’m probably going to embarrass myself). Then I would walk away with unanswered questions. Winter 2017 was only the start of the downward spiral. In the beginning, I believed that I could cure my anxiety on my own and didn’t tell anyone what I was experiencing, but I was wrong. My anxiety and concentration in school only got worse and my studying began to decrease because within time that soon triggered my anxiety into a state of panic as well and this was because I started worrying too much about fear of failure.
It took me more than a year in college to get the courage to finally push myself to meet with a therapist. A huge part of my anxiety was a fear of meeting new people so actually going to see someone I’ve never met and tell them all that I was going through proved to be something very hard for me. After meeting with a therapist a couple times I was referred to a psychiatrist where I was diagnosed with social anxiety and depression. Although this diagnosis is fairly new to me I have already gained some practical techniques to cope with my anxiety and have also been prescribed medication to lessen the symptoms. Currently, I am working with the CAE to get accommodations in classes. One that involves having a separate testing environment to lessen my anxiety.
When I first came to ------ I was sure that being a math major was the right fit for me because growing up that was my strongest subject and I always enjoyed working with numbers, but the math of high school was completely different from the math of college and I didn’t do as well as I thought I would. I knew that I had to change my major so these past two years I have been trying to figure out which major suits me the best. I finally decided that I would major in Sociology because coming from a primarily Hispanic community I always was interested in how other groups of people interacted. Sociology is a broad enough major to either go into the medical field or social work which is something I’ve always been interested in pursuing and if given another chance, I believe that I could show you my true potential. Although my mental health was a big part of me struggling in school I still take full responsibility for doing bad and I will change things coming in the future. -------- has been my dream school since I was 9 years old, and graduating with a B.A. here would mean the world to me. If I am readmitted, I will continue to meet with therapist and psychiatrist and continue to utilize the resources that the school provides to their students. I will also create a weekly schedule so that I won’t go into the week blindsided and anxious but rather ready and equipped to start the week off on a good start.
Thank you for giving me this opportunity to explain my circumstances and taking the time to consider my appeal.
p.s. CAE is center for accessible education