<p>I couldn't have been any more fortunate during this year's application season. After reading these forums, I thought I had no chance whatsoever anywhere. But lo and behold I was accepted to my dream school (Middlebury) as well as The University of Chicago. I couldn't be more grateful to the admissions commitees at both of these schools for admitting me. I'm really looking forward to attending one of these schools in the fall, and I'm in the process of making my final decision.</p>
<p>Thing is, I don't know if I'm ready.</p>
<p>I've had a pretty crappy formal education. No denying it. I've been "educated" in an urban public school system where discipline problems, social advancement, and low expectations make learning a near impossibility. I've tried to "plug the holes" by reading extensively on my own, but such predominantly verbal activity can only take me so far. Although I was able to score 800 CR and 730 W because of extensive self-study, my school's "integrated math" program (read: fuzzy math) never provided me with any of the math I needed to get a decent score on the math SAT (mine was 590). If you asked me to construct a geometric 'proof', I would have no idea where to start.</p>
<p>I've made the best possible use of all resources available to me, and I've done pretty well considering my circumstances, something I'm sure the admissions committees appreciated. Now that I've seen how ridiculously well qualified everyone else is, though, I'm starting to feel as though these schools admitted me simply because they felt sorry for me or something (BTW, I'm a white male; so it's not the whole URM thing). Even though I'm bright (I guess) and love a challenge, I don't want to drown in an academic environment that I'm not prepared for.</p>
<p>I guess what I really want to ask is: are the members of this forum representative of the 'average' student of the schools I'm considering? How well prepared does everyone else feel? I'm considering doing some intensive self-study this summer to catch up on some of the math I never learned (ironic that I'll probably get a 5 on the AP Calc AB exam and don't even know what the binomial theorem is), and I'd like to know if I'd just be wasting my time.</p>