<p>I am starting to feel like just jumping off a bridge (feel like, not about to)... Anyone else?
It sounds impossibly hard. I'm feeling like I'll wind up getting Ds and pretty much just failing out. If I can't do well I will never get into grad school... And if I fail and hate it I will be lucky to be able to transfer to community college. I still haven't looked at the thumb drive they sent me... I realize it won't do any good I just can't bring myself to open it. I swear I'm honestly starting to believe I'll just fail, make no friends, become a raging alcoholic, and in three months be sitting in a poo covered sleeping bag under a bridge clutching a paper covered bag of scotch.
ANYONE else feeling this way? Everyone I know is sow bloody excited to be going to college... half of them have been packed for the past month. My mum just thinks I'm being a "depressive little retard, intent on only seeing the worst".</p>
<p>Also the name sucks... Someone literally said, when I told them where I was going, "Couldn't make the Illinois flagship, eh?"
Blimey! Now people think I'm stupid... lovely.</p>
<p>I really hate thoose red and black checkered flannel hats with ear flaps… and, ofcourse, that seems to be the current style among homeless alcoholics.</p>
<p>While I am excited to be finally heading off to college, I’m also freaking out like you. I’ve always had that inferiority complex, though, so who knows?</p>
<p>EVERYONE (except for a handful of blowhards) will have the feeling that he/she was the “mistake” and soon a member of the adcom will be knocking at your door and asking you to leave. Soon you will discover that there are areas in which you are not only really competent but excel. It will happen. You are meant to be there. Your admission was not a fluke, not a mistake. Just remember that there are thousands of other who got the “thin envelopes” and would give anything to be where you will be. Don’t waste your opportunities, if only for them.</p>
<p>Go out, volunteer, read a book, learn something, build something with your hands, take a walk in the park, appreciate life. This is month with no distractions, no friends, no school, hopefully no work. Take advantage of it; you won’t be free like this for a long, long time.</p>
<p>It’s okay, I’m sure everyone is freaking out to some extent. There’s always that question of “Will everyone be smarter than me?” lingering. I really liked one of the old Maroon editorials that had a response to this though. </p>