Hi everyone.
I have been a straight A student for my entire life and have never received anything lower. I am the top in my class and have always been looked highly upon my my teachers and my classmates. I’ve always had a 4.0 (unweighted) GPA and a 4.8 or higher weighted GPA. I’m also well-rounded and have positions in extracurriculars. I’ve worked incredibly hard to achieve these grades and I am proud of what I have accomplished.
Yet, I received one of the biggest blows to my self esteem this year.
AP PHYSICS
I’ve got to say, this course was one of the toughest classes I have ever taken. The teacher could barely teach, but I managed to earn all A’s the entire year. I was considered as one of the best students in the class, even though I completely dreaded the course. However, when AP testing came near, I was extremely nervous. I expected at least a 4, given my past accomplishments. Unfortunately, I freaked and realized that I completely bombed the free-response portion of the exam and received a score of 2.
Yes, a 2. Typically, what you would receive in the class, would correlate with your final AP score. So basically, I couldn’t understand what had happened. This was the biggest blow I’ve ever received. I felt like a failure. It damaged my self-esteem, my self-perception, and my reputation. I dreaded that class so much, yet I took it.
I know some may say it’s not that big of a deal, that the test itself has a very low passing rate, or that I still have my chances, but I’m not so confident anymore to be honest. I guess this is a time i need to self reflect.
But anyway, I do have some other concerns. Should I retake the exam? I will be taking 5 AP exams next year, so I’m not sure if I’ll be able to fit it in. It’s also $90+ for an exam. However, if I end up not retaking it, should I send in my score? It’s definitely NOT a good score, but some say colleges still want you to send it in. And of course, I’m definitely not planning on majoring in anything physics-related by the way.I want to apply to the top 15 schools in the U.S and I don’t know how much or if any, will my AP exams really affect my acceptance. Well, I did get an A in the class the entire year, and the AP exam is only a 3 hour test on certain topics covered that year. Anyway, if you got this far, thanks for reading this. I’m really depressed right now and I am beating myself up emotionally, but at the end of the day, it already happened and it’s only one score. But please, if you have suggestions, please please let me know! Thanks again.