Hey, everyone.
I just had my final exam for my English class this morning.
While getting ready, I was in a rush, and for the life of me, I just couldn’t find my novel for the exam anywhere. I have an older sibling who went to the same high school, and I knew where their book would likely be. When I found it, in a moment of panic, I grabbed it and left.
Now, my teacher had said before finals that he might collect our fully-annotated novels after the exam, as we needed to use them for the task we were assigned. I planned to use my sibling’s, and if he ended up collecting them afterwards, I’d just ask if I could drop off my book the next day, after I found it. About 30 minutes in, he started going around the room and flipping through everyone’s books, at which point I told him that I hadn’t been able to find my book in the morning, and was using my sibling’s at that time.
He told me sternly that I should have let him know him at the very beginning of the exam. After class, I talked to him, and he expressed his deep disappointment in what I did. He told me that what I’d done was a violation of the academic code of honesty, and that he’d talk to his colleagues about what to do.
I recognize now that it’d have been best if I’d told him immediately, but at the time, I really didn’t think it was a big deal–I simply wanted to use the text for quotes, and I didn’t even read a single one of my sister’s annotations. I wasn’t trying to take anyone else’s ideas at all. I didn’t mean for it to go this far, and if I’d known that he’d consider it such a grievous breach of the honor code, again, I definitely would’ve spoken up from the start. I honestly wasn’t even aware I was doing something wrong, and I wasn’t really trying to hide the fact that I had someone else’s book.
I’m a junior in high school in the US, which means I’ll be applying to colleges in the fall. I’m very worried that this will affect my chances. More than that, I haven’t told my parents, and I’m not sure how to break the news. I don’t have any record of cheating, and I’m sure my other teachers would be able to attest to my character, but this teacher is extremely upset and has brushed off all my attempts to explain the situation.
I have a meeting with my teacher in a few days, and I’m honestly not sure what to say. What should I do, and how will this incident impact my future?