Cheating on the AP Lit Exam?

Ok, I made an account for the sole purpose of getting opinions. I know what I did was wrong. Extremely wrong. My guilt is literally eating me alive and I barely slept since the AP Lit exam because I was so paranoid.
So, basically I had my phone on me during the exam, but who doesn’t? And out of an act of desperation, I used it on the exam. I had put my phone between my legs and used a jacket I was wearing to cover it from the sides. I looked up something regarding the theme of the literary merit we had to write about in the last FRQ. I basically wrote VERY SIMILAR word-for-word on what popped up on safari. The night before the exam, I looked up the definitions/purposes of the main rhetorical devices and MEMORIZED what popped up on the internet. I also wrote what I memorized from the internet, not from my own words.
I know, it’s ridiculous right? I’m extremely ashamed, and stupid, and I know what I did was wrong. My biggest fear right now is that the proctor saw me use my phone. I didn’t tell my friends this entire story, but hypothetically asked what would happen to a student if the proctor saw them with their phone. They all responded that the proctor would take the exam and confiscate the phone and the student wouldn’t be able to finish the exam. The proctor didn’t take my exam. Someone else’s phone’s siri went off twice during the exam, and they didn’t do anything either. My fear is that they saw me with my phone and decided to flag my exam. By flagging my exam, this means College Board would look “carefully” at my exam and this could possible lead them to detect my “plagiarism”.
Today during my second AP exam, I was completely honest. I just sat down and took the exam like normal. When the multiple choice began, the proctors (who were the same people from yesterday’s Lit exam) took the sticky note off my desk that had my student ID number on it (they have us write it down before the exam starts). After awhile, the two proctors were standing together and I swear they looked at me and said something along the lines of “She was blahblah yesterday.” Now, I don’t know if I can really trust my memory, but that’s what my mind is thinking right now. One proctor also sat relatively close to me. He was in the next row (that was empty) and sat a few chairs behind me, but he had also moved there after sitting towards the end of the middle row.
I’m really freaked out right now. I don’t know if the proctors saw me using my phone because they would’ve confiscated it right away, right? Or did they see me and decide to flag me to College Board? Are the little events that I noticed during my second exam today significant? Or am I just going paranoid??
Sorry that this is really long, but I really need to get some opinions on what to do. Should I just cancel my AP Lit score before anything can happen? I’m currently a senior right now and have already committed to a pretty well-known college… Please give me some advice and leave serious answers… I’m well aware of what I did was ridiculous and unfair to other students and I have honestly no excuse to back up why I did it. It was in the moment and I got desperate to pass.

Cancel your scores now. If you cancel by June 15, the grade report that you and your high school receive will not display a grade for the exams that you canceled, but any canceled exams will be marked “canceled”. This exam isn’t worth you risking your commitment to college.

I know this is the best choice, but do you think there is anyway I’m just being paranoid? I was relying on this exam to get me placed into a higher writing division class, but I also have another chance at this on Saturday (there’s a writing exam the University I’m attending is hosting). I’m really convinced on canceling it because I’m really scared of what might happen to my acceptance… like I know my teacher will see that I canceled my scores (low-key embarrassing), but I really don’t want to risk my acceptance being rescinded because I was stupid and desperate.
Another question, if I do end up canceling my scores (which is most likely rn because I cannot stop thinking about this) should I cancel it ASAP? Or wait a little longer, like until my writing exam results come out?

“do you think there is anyway I’m just being paranoid?”

I agree with @adaline16. I think that you should cancel your scores immediately. You do not want this to play out to the end. There is too much risk here. Cancel it.

Cancel it, now. Do well on Saturday and learn your lesson.

Cancel it now. Like everyone said, prepare for Saturday, and remember it’s just one class. Stop being so hard on yourself. It’s leading you to make poor life choices… hope it all goes well

don’t cancel your score. you cheated and you deserve all of the consequences for your actions. it’s people like you who create the toxic environment you hate so much.

You looked up answers and plagiarized so you could get higher course placement at your well known university this fall and say you feel bad because it’s unfair to the other students, but you’re willing to keep the unfair advantage if there’s a decent chance you won’t get caught. That’s not a momentary lapse in judgment, it’s a choice.

The reality is that you made all of your friends aware that you cheated. Your college can rescind your acceptance if the CB cancels your score for cheating and your GC reports that on your final transcript. If you do that at college you can get expelled. Cancel the score and focus on doing well this weekend.

Another vote to cancel it now. I am glad you understand it was wrong. I am a bit concerned that you still want to see how you did. It does not matter. It wasn’t you and your work. Cancel the score today and go into Saturday with a clear conscience. If you don’t get into the higher class, so be it. Whatever class you wind up in will be the proper class for you. Take a deep breath and tell yourself IT WILL BE OK.

Edit: If you cancel a score, I don’t think you need to give a reason? We almost cancelled S16’s SAT Math II test because he fell asleep until 15 min to go and was upset he didn’t do well. (we didn’t though and the stinker got an 800) If anyone asks why you cancelled, you could say that you felt like you weren’t prepared.

Be honest - if you were certain you’d get away with it you wouldn’t cancel the test. So are you really sorry or just afraid? This to me is the bigger long term character issue.

You’ll go far in life IF you don’t get caught. Assuming you get away with it, you can cheat your way to bigger and better things. One day you’ll be caught, and when that happens, the consequences will be far worse than they will if you get caught early on, when it’s not quite so tough to repair the damage.

Or, you can cancel your score now and avoid getting grey hair early because you know you did the right thing and had a chance to correct your path before you strayed too far from it. If that type of thing matters to you.

Integrity. It’s an important word.

What you do today builds who you are tomorrow.

Cancel the class and be whole with yourself, a person who corrects their misdeeds. Someone trustworthy.

Or be a cheater, who can never be sure if they have earned their place.

Yep, cancel the score before the consequences get worse.

If they have evidence of you cheating, canceling the score will not shield you from consequences.

What an exciting time for you,OP.

I’m honestly appalled that your school doesn’t do a better job proctoring. I just proctored AP Euro the other day and we had eyes all over that room.

Aren’t all smartphones supposed to be put away before the start of any standardized test? I believe that proctors should check for this.

The best hope for you is if someone noted irregularities in the testing environment and reported it. In that case the exam would be invalidated for everybody without penalty.

I don’t believe this person. How do you cheat on FRQs with any type of competent proctor in the room? Think of all the time it would take to not only input so much into Google (maybe the person has a scanner app) but also be able to digest the answer without bobbing his or her head ten times copying the text. And even if there was no proctor in the room and no kid complained to the proctor afterwards, any decent plagiarism detector would catch what was supposedly written.

@ProfessorPlum168 6 months ago would you believe that an adult could fly into a school as a proctor and take a test on behalf of a teenager (or change the answers after the teen took it)?

I don’t think the OP has a reason to come on here and make up stories.

You didn’t just happen to have your phone on and, out of desperation, look up an answer.

Sounds to me like you planned this. You memorized before, placed your phone intentionally, to hide it. And want us to believe no one saw you use it.

Now you want a bandaid? For folks to say you just cancel and move on?

I hope this is made up.

All the saying you feel oh so guilty doesnt change what you intentionally did. Or this focus on did you get caught.