<p>I'm in a difficult and confusing situation at the moment, and am worried that I have completely screwed up my future because of my poor decisions regarding paying for college :(..</p>
<p>I'm currently a 20 year old would-be rising junior Illustration major at Rhode Island School of Design. I discovered my passion for art freshman year of high school, and soon after set my sights on going to RISD for college. I got rejected as a senior, but finally got in after spending my freshman year at MassArt working really hard on my portfolio. Although I didn't get aid, I decided that RISD was worth the investment/debt, for a variety of reasons.</p>
<p>My aunt cosigned for my loans for the first two years of college (totaling around... I'm sorry to say, $68,000), because my parents' credit isn't good enough to get a loan. However, she recently decided that I've taken on too much debt already and will not cosign for anymore loans. I love my aunt and cannot blame her, but I did not expect or plan for this... and am not sure what to do now. </p>
<p>Two weeks ago, my mom wrote a letter about our situation to the financial aid office. As a result, they offered me $10,300 in the maximum federal student loans, a work study and a non-need based scholarship. This was in hopes that my parents would be able to get loans to cover the rest. Well... they haven't. I wrote them an email 2 days ago, asking about the possibility of spending a year or two at community college while working on improving my portfolio to the point where I would perhaps get a large enough talent/ portfolio based scholarship to cover the rest. Plus, I would also apply to every outside art scholarship possible. I haven't heard back from them yet, but the chances of that happening are probably very little...</p>
<p>So, the options I've thought of:
-  Go to community college for one or two years and get a job, while working on my portfolio to get a large enough scholarship for RISD or even another art school, so that I can continue studying to become an illustrator.  Not sure if this is plausible, as it relies largely on chance.  I know of others who've gotten scholarships that big, but they're usually very stingy with aid and facing budget cuts.  I'm now wishing that I had just gone to community college first, after high school..</p>
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<li>I could also go to Worcester State College, because I'd probably get the tuition covered by federal loans.  However, the application deadline for priority transfer/ aid has passed.  I just emailed them to ask if they're still accepting applications for the fall.  I doubt that, so I might have to go there spring semester instead, and get a job as soon as possible to start paying back my loans, while working on my portfolio.  Either way, I would major in psychology and minor in art, and then either try again to transfer back to RISD/ another art school, or go to grad school to become an art therapist instead (more stable career), hoping that I can make a career out of illustration on the side or something :(...? </li>
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<p>Any and all advice is welcome. I know that many people will disagree with my choices of either going into art, taking on all that debt, or both, but.. what's done is done, and all I can do now is figure out how can handle this responsibly.</p>